The Prayer

Song sang by June Kim and I during a recent concert. Doesn't sound perfect but still friggin awesome to me.
We will probably be cutting a CD together with other great vocalists such as Coryne Farnsworth and Emily Sears so stay tuned for that.
Hope you like the music and I'll always be praying, for all of you. THis song goes out to you.

coincidence?

Life is not always easy; it was not meant to be so. It's a time of testing and proving. We learn to handle disappointment and sorrow, which in turn builds character and increases our compassion for others.
THis is a quote taken from Kandace's blog and dang, she is must either be a fortune teller, a genius or she's MEGA into the Spirit today. lol. Scary how she can read my mind, speak with a force that cuts right into my soul. yeh Kandace's WOW I call it. But its such a coincidence because this is exactly what I was thinking about this week! Creepily Cool Non? And it kinda ties into the theme that I have been refering to. Perspective and change.

Failure was a word that NEVER existed in my dictionary. I hated that word, condemned it, and banned it from ever being used whenever I was prepping my team for a competition. I have ran a few good races, burned all competition away. We have sang some good songs, blew the audience away. I have won debates and best speaker awards, chewed up my opponents and spat them out again after I was done with them. No mercy. No failure. Ever. But then recently I reaxamined my life...

My childhood friends inactive from church. Deacon's president, Teacher's president, and most importantly friend. And I didnt manage to do a thing. Didnt manage to change a friggin thing. Failed.

Chibi. Had/has boyfriend problems and of course! lol. I am the best one to ask...Havnt managed to help her out much. Havnt been able to be there when she needed. Havnt managed to find the courage to introduce the Gospel to her. Failed.

And now. Matt Sears and a whole load of other people. Friends who have helped me out countless times. Friends who have pulled me up when I was down. Friends whom I promised. Promised that no matter when, no matter where, no matter what, if they needed help, I would be there to help them solve whatever troubles they were facing. THey have helped me, I havnt managed to help them at all. Failed.

And when it comes to my role as a son and a brother. Gosh lets not even get started on that.

Why cant God be more direct. Why cant he tell me that:"Hey, this is what would get Max to want to come to church again" or "Yo, Coryne likes this, she needs that and you can help her with this. It would make you a better friend." Why cant he tell me exactly what I can and need to do to fulfill my responsibilities and callings.

Failure is in my life more that I cared to imagine. And this is where Kandace's qoute strikes me hard.
Life is not always easy; it was not meant to be so. It's a time of testing and proving. We learn to handle disappointment and sorrow, which in turn builds character and increases our compassion for others.

I guess that failure its part of life. Its part of the process of falling down, picking ourselves up and learning from that fall. Its a humbling experiece that makes us more relient and grateful to God. Its not necessarily a bad thing. Dont get me wrong its not that I was proud. I attributed EVERYTHING to God. Thanked Him for ALL I have. But shoot me. Because something like this was mentioned in my patriachal blessing. Something along the lines that I will learn from experiences that would not be too hard, to be humble and to learn how to serve my fellow men to the fullest, to know how to fulfill my calling. Its not the exact wording but its the general idea.
I guess failure IS needed. A certain degree of it anyway. Its not going to be easy. Its going to be pain. Disappointment and sorrow.

Nobody knows what I am going through. I am literally wrecked with mental torment over my failures. My inability to magnify my church callings. My patheticness as a friend. My failings as a son and a brother. THey say character takes time to build as you go through the refiner's fire. This fire sure hurts. Bad. But I know. I must trust that its for my good.

Remember how I talked about the people who bring about change? The REAAALLY successful ones, you call them Presidents and Nobel Prize winners. Obama, Ghandi, MArtin Luther King Jr. THe unsuccessful ones, you call them terrorists and psychopaths. Osama, Bush etc. (yeah I like my little joke.) At the end of the day what am I? I fear I am more a psychopath. I have failed in my goal to change. And well, perhaps the sooner I stop trying to, the better things might become. Gosh how I've messed up and failed. I should close this chapter of my life.
but whatever the case, to those who have changed me, you are more than Presidents and Nobel Prize winners to me.
and as kandace says, sank you x)

2 people are on my slapping list when i get back to singapore. thanks for calling me emo. har

just got back from sabah, class vacation. and it was quite awesome! haha. hiking through hardcore rainforests, getting pounded by waterfalls, serious whitewater rafting with waves more than 1m high, soaking in the mud volcano, and sleeping on a hammock along the beach. just awesome. and of course all the nasi lamak and all the other sedap stuff.
so pictures some other time. most of the pictures of me featured me sleeping. haha. it was not action packed enough

perspectives III, If today was your last day

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last...

seminary today. the teacher Sister Farnsworth asked. what would you do if today were you last day. what do you want to be remembered for. what do you want written on your grave stone? have you told the important people in your life that they are important?
so isnt it a coincidence. just 2posts down *pointpoint* under perspectives II, i have given to shout out to some of the great people in my life. *go look*
but what do I want to be remembered for. and gosh. I have tried to make myself remembered. Coaching debate teams and breaking into finals for the first time~singing soprano, tenor than bass and pulling AChoir through and doing my bit for NJChoir~budding triathlete~more recently a 1st assistant to the branch president among many other things~but. thinking about it, i guess. that if I am just remembered as a friend, as a good friend, as a friend that was always there~that would be enough.
what do I want written on my tombstone? probably this. so listen up!
The Best is Yet to Be. (anyone surpwise) I am a man who strives for perfection in anything and everything. pitch, tone and rhythm in singing. rebuttals and arguements in debates and really. in everything
Proud to Be. Proud to Be a Singaporean. Proud to Be a Mormon. Proud to Be your friend. (:

"HD" - Celine Dion: The Prayer with Andrea Bocelli (Madison Square Garden Taking Chances Tour)

i love this song. will be singing this tomorrow. but of course june and i will sound totally better than this. june is celine and i am andrea bocelli. we all need a prayer

Andrea Bocelli "Can't Help Falling In Love"on stage

another wonderful song by andrea bocelli. i wanna sing something like this sometime. anyone interested?

perspectives II and so hows life? (editted)

THIS AWESOME PICTURE IS TAKEN BY NON OTHER THAN KANDACE
People change you. and you welcome that change. because deep down, that's what you want to do too. you want to be the change, bring about change, be remembered for that change. and so you admire them for what they did and you embrace it.
I think this sounds quite philosophical. I like it. and of course. I wrote it. haha. but anyways the later part of this post is dedicated to these people.


i think even fate has been making a fool out of me. haha. or at least my mp4 is. lemme give you an idea of what happened. i decided to put my player on shuffle out of random.
1st song- With or Without you, U2
2nd song- Here without you, 3 Doors Down
3rd song- Empty, The Click 5
4th song- All out of Love, Air Supply



so get the idea yeh. haha. and a few of us guys are going to sing Yesterday by the Beatles. and its so funny how just last week i was scorning and scoffing saying pft. stupid emo song. why are we singing this. haha. dang my teacher is a fortune teller because now this song is speaking what my heart is crying out.

things mean different things to you at different points in your life. its like a patriachal blessing. or the scriptures. it means different things to you when you are at different point of your life. or Sunday Best attire. What is a Sunday best? It depends on where you are. its called the Spirit of the Law. so see. just like those songs, things mean different things to you at different times of your life. in in reality, so are friends. they usually come and go. they usually are a different presence and influence in your life as it goes. usually this presence and influence decreases. usually, they eventually disappear.

but there are those special ones. those special ones who never die away. those special ones whose influence increases as time goes. these are those special ones. this is a shout out to you so that you know what you have done. life is short, unpredictable and i must say this while i have the chance. i have told some of you in person. but if i cant . this is it (: and of course the list is not exhaustive. not ranked in any order of AWESOMENESS. haha

to casey. whom i have known since i dont know when. crazy dj, music mixer magician, swimmer, tennis player, church senior, and of course a fantabulous fergerlicious friend. (:
credibilistic coryne (why did the cactus cross the road? haha) and EXTRemily (:we java jive away. haha. and other cool shenzhen people like rachel and jonny boy, saren, awesomegalicious audrey! haha.
krazy kandace aka the photographer, the cloner, ms jelly along with a whole lot of other names. got to know you when i was in sec2. life has never been the same since. all the backward letters and all the other retarded stuff. haha. good times
benji jembi lol. another FFF member. childhood friend, president of a president, ahaha. yeh i remember how you used to call yourself that. fun prank partner. haha.
sherman, david. basketballer and volleyballer. street magician. the times we shared will always be remembered.
all my ACbrothers, joey, roy, ken, ant... you rawk. we roll. and the blood of the chimera runs through our veins.

so many more but of course my family has to come in. always by my side. always will be I hope.
this shout out goes to you all. and if anything might ever happen. I hope, that you will always think of me at my best.