Tuesday, December 30, 2008

since the 5th of june? i feel like a fool...a fool that has been played with...yes i know i promised jiayi i wont go do anything to find him. but i really cnt help it sometimes. walk past hwa chong and see the bunch of them doing "drills" i feel like just walking into the middle of them and seek him out. but a promise is a promise. dnu if he still reads the blog but if he does. haha. oh wells. a promise i made a promise i will keep. called honor. smth that is not that common. sadly. oh well, i wont seek him out but that doesnt mean i didnt hope
that he wont seek me out. was hoping that he wld be dumb enuff to make a confrontation when i went to hc for the choir workshop in nov. cld have worked out some. has been long since i got into a good exercise. dang. oh well. but i prob wont do anything to him. for personal reasons that i'm not going to state. so hope he brings some friends that he doesnt like much so that at least he wont miss them. blehh. forgiveness is such a hard thing...

Sunday, December 28, 2008

this is my 184th post. haha. i dunno why i took notice Xp under normal circumstance i wld curse teh world and say tks for screwing up my life. now i might not even be able to get a high sch diploma in china...so yes. thats under normal circumstances. but, surprisingly i'm not worried. not really surprisingly. they say your patriachal blessing gives you direction in life, gives you comfort. it really does...really

Sunday, December 21, 2008

CHRISTMAS IS COMING! its the hap-hap happiest season!
the 20th was such a special dayy. in more than one way. rare that you can give and yet receive love on the same day. went to do the service project that was magnificently led by ying er the music genius. brought smiles to the old folk's face. so that was nice...but david, sherman, casey and i super zzz...stand there ring bell, hit drum, hit washboard. but at least we were a part lurh. so thats good (: got my teacher's cert and my deacon's cert that is well, 2year's due. never got it until now...oh well. haha. priest cert next! must go out for movie with the church doooodes. 
20th was also one of the happiest day of my life. got a few things that will last forever (: i hope. haha. will it? one is my printed patriachal blessing. read it again. amazing how the blessing is given by Elder Tan but not by Elder Tan? 
the other gift, well. haha. not going to say what it is but i really hope it lasts forever. hmm? (: pleaase...
 look at the stars...(: and count your blessings.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

loving youuuu always...

Monday, December 8, 2008

haha. decided to put up some new music. haha. to suit my mood. heheh. and situation...leaving on a jet plane. haha. 
ok. got my black belt in primary2. haha. a record i think. haha. thinking of taking up krav maga now. get back the eye of the tiger again.
The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.

I dont watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
i wear glasses or contact lenses
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. not proud of it...
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now. haha! any donations? (:
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
I have a lot of friends. i do rite? haha
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex. 
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat. 
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone...
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. 
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. 
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time. wahaha! i do i do alright! believe it or not
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. thanks lurh ben!
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle. 
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse. ridden...
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep. 
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. note the word tryyy...
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Will stab:
1)amanda mak. lol
2)eugene. heh
3)Jac
4)marcus!!
5)ally. haha. oh wait she still have exam. 

Sunday, December 7, 2008

yes. Armany...the chinese version of it i suppose...and the weird names some ppl have. one person was called eraser...another called rainy...like helloo! haha.
oh yeahh man. i wont die in china coz they have bakua! haha. grr. hope i can stay for new year eve dance. haha. 
man will i miss singapore. haha. all the frens here. so lets tick of a random few. haha. okok nj there are alottt. haha. cj, BENJAMIN! haha. and hes not even in cjc anymore...then there is nap. haha. ngee ann poly. the school with the mega huge campus that i got lost in. yeah. haha. casey and kandace. haha. 2 retardedly funny and cool people (: st nicks. haha. dun noe many ppl frm stnicks my age . i know 3 issit? or more. haha. good frens with 2 of them who are really crazy ppl. (Xp must be the sch larrh) and the last one, if she wasnt trying to kill me everytime we meet, lol. mayb can be gd frens XD heheheh. soo many more people. see thats the thing when you change sch every 2years. 3primary schs. 2 sec schs. madness...
i've got to get a job. i've got to finish making all the presents i need to. i've got to get my life straight!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

pictures! haha

damn wasnt i cute. hahaha! still am heheh. find me if you can
lover's bridge
the place to be (:
haha. i like smelly tofu....yarr right.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Change

You know i didnt really support President Elect Obama. I was supporting McCain. Why? Obama is what America WANTS. not what America NEEDS. america wants a celebrity. a symbol. but what they really need is someone firm, who knows his stuff who can pull them out of this crisis. President Elect Obama said in his recent speech that this financial crisis is serious, not easy to handle and will take a long time to handle. something of a 6yr period if i'm not wrong. cant remember his actual words. but to me, this is just his way of saying, "hey, if i dont manage to cure this, not my fault! coz it needs a loooooong term solution..." but President Elect Obama is really smart. no doubt about that so. yeah! maybe it wont be so bad after all.?

one thing i like about him though is his slogan. "CHANGE" noble of him. he aims for a CHANGE?in the situation in Iraq, a CHANGE?in the economic crisis and stuff. and till date, he has successfully brought about no CHANGE?

but change is something i believe everyone wants to be able to bring about. it doesnt matter what we change. be it ourself, others our dog (i dont have one. haha) change is what we want to do. those who are really unsuccessful in bring about change are called terrorists...those who are really successful, they are usually called presidents. haha. (or so says tom clancy...)

i myself hope that i have been able to bring about my fair share of change. i have done lots, but i dont think i have done enoughh...ok finee. in barker, prefect exco was okayy, then debate exco and choir pres for what 2mths because i had to transfer school? so not much time to create change. then went to nj. where i'm like the jnr. so not much done too. kinda feel a little disappointed though. aimed to get champions in debate and be ranked top 5 best speaker, aimed to be get gold with honours for syf, cant do it too. but when you guys get it, at least i can say that i was PART of a gold with honours kwair (:

 you know. i'm really lucky that i have such good church friends who help change me for the better whenever i needed 'em. always reminding me to be good. wait sorry. for guys its called advice. for girls its called nag. lol. not i say one. haha. pres skelton said it once in a talk. heheh. but joking. really really. they have been a great support. then school frens. like eugene. keep making sure i can learn the songs. super senior. then like chibi. haha. make me feel old but happy. lol. i dont feel like talking bout negative changes although there are alot. people who changed such that i dont really know if i know them anymore. 

you see the thing is that the world changes. people change. so sometimes you dont know whats happening. who that person is anymore. but one thing stays the same. the church. the gospel the Lord. He will always be there. His church will always remain strong. and in the church we can always find safety, security and peace.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

managed to go to the gym twice and swim once this week in shenzen. 2hrs plus per time. haha. not bad. then went to swim too but brrrr. the water was super cold. like NUMBING cold. who ask me to go swim outdoors during winter. lol.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Homo rights

with all the hype over proposition 8, i think i shall do a really short post on that 1st. before doing one on the theory and construction of knowledge. exciting stuff that one.

interesting thing. this is the 1st time that the church as actually straightforwardly stated their stand in a social issue without 1st being asked about it. usually they dont say anything. but this time its different. proposition8 had the potential to change california, america and well, even the world. why? because globalisation is really just = to americanisation. take a look at the fastest and biggest effects of globalisation. macdonalds, coke...you get the idea. so when america changes, the world changes. thats why the church had to speak out and advise to vote for prop8. even then, it was only passed by a VERY small margin. scaryy.

so. gays, nature or nuture. and these are all just my personal opinions. really if homosexuality was meant to be, God would have created Adam and Steve, not Adam and Eve. so really the natural order of things. animals in noah's ark, one male, one female. gosh what chaos it would have been if the animals were homo...so really. so yes. nuture. or i wouldnt really say nuture since no young child is allowed to live with any homo parent now to make it a cause of nuture. i would call it one's free choice that makes one homo.

anyway, people say if we allow them to get married, it will show greater tolerance, less discrimination. such nonsense. discrimination will just take a diferent form. or actually, it will increase since gays will be easily identified now that they are allowed to get married. they'll get rejected from jobs, schools and such. of course the organisations will deny it but reallyy...inevitable. then there will be preventing them from adopting children. young ones at least. reason for not allowing them to adopt young children? research has shown that young children mimick the behaviours of those that they are in prolonged contact with. so yes. we cannot allow that can we? yes they still have a choice to change in the future. but i dont want to take that chance. see. discrimination still. not good for them.

ok. then please dont complain that your rights are being compromised. coz by all means, have your right and continue being gay. no one stopping you. and i dont really care much. in fact, some of the NICEST people i have homo tendency. and dont go complaining that because the catholic church or whatever votes for proposition 8 and deny gay marraige means that God doesnt love you. God loves all His children. but it doesnt mean he encourages them to do whatever they want with their life. Family a Proclaimation states that marraige is sacred between a man and a woman and the only way to heaven is through sacred temple marraige. expressing disapproval does not mean no love.

so yes. i'm against gay marraige. and looking at current trends, the world is getting more liberal as a whole. the next time this matter is put to vote again, things will probably be not be the same...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

To do list:
Gym...swim...
Make the presents i'm supposed to make
Go out for movie and dinner with friends
Do a post on Science vs Religion
Do a post on Gays, Nature vs Nuture
Feel intellectual in the process XD

old pics never posted

i realise i have a lot of these old pictures that i never put up. so there. haha
i was tired...
lol. i thought that drink was lemonade then i got a shock when it was suuuper bitter. it was grapefruit juice. yuuuckkyyyy.

my super adorable couusin! haha

Pictures from taipei- 1


picture taken without flash. look at our hands with no bodies. haha
now with flash. haha. we're in some funky chinese place where to get in you have to find this secret button on a statue and press it to open the door. haha.
ate at this place called the modern toilet. so everything served in like toilet bowls, urinals and stufff, haha.

yeahh and this is my seaat. haha, there was some mysterious thing inside. lols.. scaryy
me and my bro in this shiny uhm. thing on the door of a old palace. haha.
 more pics ltr when i'm bored. haha

Saturday, November 22, 2008

presenting to you the Fantabulous Fergerlicious Five. XD back from taipei. off to shenzen on mon. wheee...zzz. MUST GET BACK BY THE 28TH! dun careee. haha.
and chibi's, who is jiayi, muffins ROX MY SOX! HAHA. super nice. thaaanks! (:

Star Wars - Funnyyyyy

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.


1. Do you have secrets?
yeahhh. but if i tell you, i'm gonna have to kill ya. XD

2. Would you fall in love with a girl younger than you?
wahhh...what a question. if shes the right one (: but only chibi i think will noe the answer hmm? haha

3. Do you enjoy going to school NJ.?
theres the class! haha. the chibi! the choir! XD all start with C. haha. oh chio bu also start with C. haha. but nj dun have any! haha. or mayb have laaaa. lol. better be politicality correct. XD

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
buy a few properties 1st since the prices are friggin loww noww. then get a private jet so that i can fly back to singapore anytime i want after i leaave. get the chibi and myy freens smth. (: and donate the rest to the church. oh! after putting some aside for the futute aka mission, honeymooon Xp

5. Would you love your ex again?
dnu?

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
of course everone wants to be loved but i would say loving someone, caring for someone gives you sooo much joyy.

7. List out your 15 favourite songs:
Lucky
I just called to say I love you
With or without you
Pretty Woman
Hey Jude
Viva La Vida
Imagine
Redeemer of Isreal
I'll go where you want me to go
When a man loves a woman
Every Woman in world
Angels
Day tripper
Ticket to ride
Love, me

8. If you're single and your crush is already attached, what would you do?
I wont whack the daylights out of him will I? nahh. joking only. i'm too nice. lol. NOT self praise.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
recently? yeahh. i got my patriachal blessing

10. What makes you angry?
those who lie...but lets not go into that.
those who think they are friggin big but are not...zzz...lets not get into that too.
those who backstab.
those who are LATE! hahaha. fine laa. mayb that one wont get angry. i very hard get angry de actually. (:

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Finished my ns and my mission! (: studying in Tuft's IR program. hopefully with that ahem...special someone...

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
Famileee.
Church friends! including the fantabulous fergurlicious five!
chibi! XD
and mark...ooh well, doesnt really matter if shes important to me if i'm not to her isnt it? lol! and please...of course mark isnt her real name! she's mark/oinkyy whatever you wanna call her laa! not telling you the real name.

13. What is the most important thing in life?
your values. mhmm.

14. Single or attached?
single...

15. What is your favourite colour?
pink is hawt. real men wear pink. but hello kity is damn gay okay?

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
yes i would. but a relationship does not only involve one person rites? but i will. yes.

17. What would be the 1st thing you say/shout/scream when you've reach the top of Mount Everest?
i dont think i'll have any energy to shout sorry to disappoint. haha

18. What are you doing now?
the quiz...

19. Do you prefer chocolate drink or coffee?
the question is which of the following can i drink...and if i cant drink coffee, then how can i prefer it.

20. 5 people I have tagged:
casey. haha. lol
benji! after your A's
i would tag trent and zl too. lol. all part of the FFF but lol. wont. haha
LISA! ahhha! punishment XD jkjk. haha
i dnu laa. whoever else. haha

Sunday, November 2, 2008


pictures from seminary grad. prob will be some of the last ppl with these guys. blehh.

Friday, October 31, 2008

why did i wait at all. i rationalised with myself. oh well, you were busy. to get busier, it wont work out now. so i'll wait. and after a year maybe, we will both have more time. but now, time is something i do not have at all...what went wrong? i waited and in the end we drifted. what tore us apart. i have been a fool. yeahh. i'm sorry. i'm still waiting. still keeping hope in my heart...
i'm gonna make FULL use of my time noww. no time to waste really. compose song, compose poem. go out with chibi and other best frens.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

had choir todayy. ms lim was in a relatively good mood XD but zzz. hvnt confirm syf song yet. haha. last day of sch tmrw! wahahaha

Monday, October 27, 2008

went cycling early in the morn today. average speed of 27km/h top speed of 35km/h. haha. but i got chased by 5dogs in total during the bike...zzz...so got slowed down alot. oh wait. actually when i started to get chased by the dogs i started going even faster. haha. stuupid Shepherd dog. haha. 

did some family history work today. didnt know my great-grandpa was so cool. his real name is "yang wu long" but he was given the reputation name of "hei long" aka black dragon. during the time he was alive, Singapore just gained independence. so he help the govt. alot to pull the local population together and won 2public service awards for it. He was also one of the only people that the secret societies then feared. noting that the secret societies then were still going strong. once, the founder of Yeo's (the drink company) son was kidnapped by the secret society. the founder went to the police but they couldnt do anything so they went to my great-grandpa for help who was also respected by the members of the secret society. going along with 2parangs to meet the secret society, he managed to get the founder's child out alive with just a small token sum instead of a huge ransom. such a hero. so proud to be his descendent! haha

Sunday, October 26, 2008

had dinner with maternal external family. hvnt seen so many of them in ages. my older cuz, hong hong gor. my big jiu jiu. haha. hes super funny. hahaha. anyway, we were celebrating my grandpa's 79th bday. haha.mhmm.
barker has missed out on the meth cup trophy for the 13958019571th time...zzz. disappointing but oh well. thought they could beat mgs. YES. MGS TEAM A until...oh well. dont wanna say. but yeah. they have improved so thats good. ahha.
pres. skelton spoke today at church. he has an incredible humour. british humour. haha. but mhmm. it was a wonderful talk. (: zzz. tired. haha 

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Tens Twenties Twisters and Twisties
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU:
1) Are you single? sadly
2) Are you happy? ask me tmrw when i get my gpa back.
3) Are you bored? totally
4) Are you sad? mayb a little. bleh
5) Are you fat? you must be joking. haha. do i look like jeremy to you? joking. haha. he has lost weight XD
6) Are you a virgin? yeah. a 16year old virgin
7) Are you afraid of the dark? nah
8) Are you good at cooking? haha. should i be modest? haha. okok la
9) Are you sleepy? kinda
10) Are your parents still together? yar~

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:
1) Do you believe in love at first sight? i've gotta say yes
2) Have you ever been hurt emotionally? kptesh...yup
3) What is it that you look for in someone? ehh...someone with same interests, errh. happy and cheerful! haha
5) Are you afraid of commitments? nuh uh
6) Have you hugged someone within the last week? brother...haha. doesnt count rite? haha
7) Have you ever had a secret admirer? well thats a secret.
8) Which ex did you love the most? hahaha! lols. 
9) Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? blehh. my bro la ok? 
10) Have you ever cheated in a relationship? ...

TEN THIS OR THAT(choose only one):
1) Love or money? Love
2) Hard liquor or beer? none
3) Cats or dogs? Dogs
4) A few best friends or many regular friends? Few best friends
5) Television or internet? Internet (:
6) Pepsi or coke? coke.
7) Wild night out or romantic night in? Romantic night in
8) Money or happiness? Happiness
9) Night or day? Night
10) MSN or phone? i would LOVE to say phone. lols.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER:
1) Been caught sneaking out? i sneak out? *WIDE EYED INNOCENT STARE* seriouslee...
2) Been skinny dipping? hahaha! wtheck. no.
3) Done something you regret? yeahhh. BIG time
4) Bungee jumped? i want to. haha
5) Lied to someone you love? ehh who nvr lie before. even if its just a teeeneee weeenyyy one.
6) Finished an entire jaw breaker? yeahhhh babyyy. haha
7) Have you ever slept in someone else's bed? yeahh. haha. cousin's. lol.
8) Wanted an ex bf/gf back? hmm...cnt say.
9) Cried because you lost a pet? haha. no pet recently 
10) Wanted to disappear? yeah.

TEN PREFERENCES:
1) Smile or eyes: Smile
2) Light or dark hair: Dark
3) Hugs or kisses: i'm greedy. give me both XD
4) Shorter or taller: doesnt really matter. 
5) Intelligence or attraction: both.
6) Romantic or spontaneous: both
7) Hook-up or relationship: relationship. and right now i hope their's is a hook up
8) Dinner out or takeaways: as long as it's food! hahah!
9) Hot or cute: HALF CUTE! haha. not ugly but adorable. XP
10) Educated or dropout: Educated

TEN LASTS:
1) Last phone call you made: eugene. asked if hv choir then found out that i was late. haha
2) Last phone call you received: ehh. yanqi i think?
3) Last person you hung out with: marcus at the gym 
4) Last person you scold vulgarities: love thine enemies. 
5) Last person(s) you hugged: wahhhhh! ask how many times liao!
6) Last text message you received: seriouslyyy. if you ask one more time about a handphone...
7) Last person(s) you went to the movies with: good question.
8) Last person/thing you missed: I missed ??? rawr. can dont remind me...mark
9) Last thing you touched: my keyboard.
10) Last person/thing to piss you off: dont ask.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

open today was super uber dead. 2days away from o's so who did they really expect to come...sadesh baptised his aravin today. (hope i got the name right) good job bro. it was really special today. and the Spirit during the baptism was wonderful. 
youth fireside tmrw! haha

Thursday, October 16, 2008

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Wen Jee
2. Wen Jay
3. Wen Jie. haha.

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD
1. theldsbakerboy
2. oink
3. fred?

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
lol makes me sound so ego...
1. height? although i'm not THAT tall
2. my small eyes whenever i take a photo
3. erms...my little pinky toe. haha.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF
Who am I not to like God's creation huhuh?! haha. but ohmaaahn. my leg so pain. so thats one.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Malaysia (grandma)
2. Southern province of China. lol fine i dunno what part but some part la.
3. Africa. Since Mr Heah says everyone's ancestral root really comes from Africa

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
EMILY! wahaha. joking joking. please. i'm a barker boy. no fear other than the fear of God.
Although now I'm scared shitless that i'll get lower than 2.0 gpa. although i think i managed to clear it safely. fhewww.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Genealogy (aka family and stuff...)
2. God
3. Girls! (JOKING! WAHLAO! haha) friends laa. (:


THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW
1. AC tank top
2. berms
3. uhm...underwear?

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW)
1. Fire- Bruce Springsteen
2. I feel my Savior's love- Mormon Tabernacle Choir
3. Redeemer of Isreal- also Mormon Tabernacle Choir hahaha.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. Commitment
2. Communication
3. (un)Conditional love forever (: we'll make it last.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER
1. I still like Mark
2. I don't like Mark
3. I love to sing!
find out which one is the truth...hard to tell eh?
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU
1. Eyes (:
2. Face?
3. Hair. haha

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. Singing
2. reading
3. gyming

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW
1. Swim
2. Bike
3. Run

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED

1. Ambassador
2. Teacher
3. Foreign service officer for any company

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION
1. Africa
2. japan again
3. America la  maybe. USD dropping. haha

THREE NAMES YOU LIKE
1. used to like jayden...
2. Tanner! haha. he's just cute. haha
3. UNCLE! XD egoistic me. haha

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Sing with the bunch of 'em, casey and all, in a world tour. hahaha. wishful eh.
2. Tell those close to me how much they mean to me.
3. serve the Lord on a mission.


THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL
1. I like pink?
uhmm. skip. hahaha

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY
1. I like football
2. I like rugby
3. I like myself XD hahaha.

THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
1. Chibi! XD
2. Benji (after your A levels thank you. haha)
3. anyone else who is feeling bored...haha

COME GO WITH ME..THE DELVIKINGS

Bruce Springsteen - Fire

sexyyy song. hahaha. lol. caleb sings it nice. love the bass

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I need to do a post on general conference. but as a short note, hearing the general authorities speak, i get the feeling that we are about to enter into really dark and trying times. harder times than this. all the revelations are starting to be fulfilled. His coming is drawing nearer. and i'm scared. not for me. but those who are dear to me.  need start working. yes. move the work forward. a longer post on this next time.
open dayyy! so crap. i still hvnt memorize the songs...zzz. but it nice. haha. finished school at what 11am today? then camped at bytes and choir store and slept till bout what 2.50. haha. sian. haha. lol. but the ip1's e broadcast was super funny. haha. then then chibi and her ONE. so half cute when they were acting. haha. so nicee. but anyway, i think some, well more than some of the ip1's are just plain weird. really. then some their faces just so giam pa. haha. just cnt stand it. lol. but oh well...
man i'm like dying for some action. but i promised the kid i wont do anything...so....blahhhh!
so i'm still deciding what i should do. i still like you but...rawrrrr

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Mormon Tabernacle Choir - Be Still My Soul

The best choir in teh world...MORMON TABERNACLE CHOIR! (: the dream to sing for them. 

Thursday, October 9, 2008



old pics from japan. haha. see the pincer's on head? haha. i wanted to look like the baddy in ultraman. watah! haha. lol. mutual tmrw choir tmrw XD

"women don't want to here what you think...they want to hear what THEY think. Just in a deeper voice." haha. the only problem is what on earth are they thinking about! haha

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

lol. i missed A for physics by 0.7%!!! rawr. Asking mr tan to help pull my cp up so that i can hit the A. sucks man. worked like crazy this term. then bio i got a c+...so school was crazy again today. went for assembly at 7.40, lessons started at 12.30...madness no? well, good job chibi! haha. both maths Ace. haha. super pro. (: gd job! haha. 
so haha. i still cant help laughing at the comment on one of the post below. well...i've made a promise with the chibi (: so i'm not going to break it. but honestly, i just cant forget her...bleh. how? what am i going to do when november comes...
yeah baby! perform at open day! come for it! haha. 18th october. join the nj familee. haa. lols. (actually, just come for the free gifts XD) haha.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

got back a few results already. LA yesterday, IH and the 2maths today. pheww. stress man. haha. i was shivering in my seat. like literally.so LA=A, IH=A, math=B & D. haha. not bad la. quuite ok. totally aching now after yesterday's gym like wtheck. haha. but worth it. haha. mayb i'll go tmrw. if i'm well enuff. was supposed to go running with benji but didnt feel well enough so had to call it off in the end. tmrw. mayb gym mayb. haha. come on man! high gpa high gpa! hahaha

Monday, October 6, 2008

so school today was suuuuper retarded. one period. 8.50am-9.40am. so what did i do? go to safra from 11am-6pm. hahaha. swam for an hour, ran for almost as long and gymed for the rest of the time. ache. pain. blehhh. nice XD ahaha. going to run with benji tmrw. yeah mahn. hahaha. then back to the gym on wednesday. and hopefully on friday to. i guess i'll just swim on thurs or smth. so results are coming out. fun. hahaha. choir starting again this week. ahha. we bassos rock. but i dunno. i just couldnt sing at morning singing today. just couldnt. blehh. haha. yes! new tag board thanks to the little kid who kept on pestering me to change my old one. hahaha. i'm tired. goodnight! haha

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Joseph Smith Cantata

the band of shuai ge's. haha. (from left): Damen is on top Benjamin, Casey, Han, Me XD
they asked me to post this up. haha.
Cutest guy on earth. haha. not saying which one of us is the one though XD
I like his blond hair. hahah!

Wonder who was the one who commented:
"anonymous said:
giving up so fast on your love?
In life, nothing ventured is nothing gained,
so just go ahead and fight till you die."


I love these verses. It is when Joseph Smith is in Liberty Jail before he was killed by the mobs. After he prayed, God answered him:
Doctrine & Covenants 121:7-8
"My son, peace be unto thy soul, thine adversity and thine affliction shall be but a small moment; And then if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes."

Doctrine & Covenants 122: 7-9
"And if thou shouldst be cast into the pit, or into the hands of murderers, and the sentence of death be passed upon thee; if thoube cast into the deep; if the bellowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to hedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of hell shall gape open at the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good. 
The Son of Man hath descended below them all. Art thou greater than he?
Therefore, hold on thy way, and the priesthood shall remain with thee; for their bounds are set, they cannot pass. Thy days are known, and thy years shall not be numbered less; therefore, fear not what man can do, for God shall be with you forever and ever."

I remember also what President Lai (not myra! haha. her dad yeah) said at General Priesthood meeting. "Revelation flows in the office of the Stake Presidency. Revelation flows." And i believe them. I know they are called of God. 



Thursday, October 2, 2008

just came back from general priesthood session and it was great. lol. haha. there was macarthur, there was bishop foo (hope i spelt it right) some 3rd ward ward mission leader. but the best were from pres o'grady and pres lai. yeahhh. pres lai was...great. no other word for it. spoke with such power...it was just great. "do not fear" he kept repeating that. "do not fear". also he asked "if Christ were to appear before  you, what would you say". other things he said, "every new day is a bonus that you have. every breathe that you have. are you using it to serve the Lord?" smth like that. cant remember the exact words for the last quote. but it was great. lol. and like 10min before it started, pres lai asked me to chorus. lol. hope i did ok. haha.
you know. i have to be something else. something more. i am a priest. not a normal kid. my bar must be raised. my standards must be higher. live my life better. change the heart. not the behavior. but its hard ehh. hard. but we try. and we will succeed. we must succeed. 
i love this church.
JOSEPH SMITH CANTATA! COME COME COME! haha. check the last post for details. somewhere down there.
what am i going to do when november comes. when that combined concert comes.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008



i love his pic. haha. 
what am i?
i am a barker boy,
i am an njcian. Proud to be (yar rite)
i am a priest,
I AM A UNCLE! XD hahaha.
JOSEPH SMITH CANTATA THIS SATURDAY! and i DEMAND that everyone goes for it. go to newton mrt, walk towards balmoral, see the church? turn in thats right (: 7pm good good. haha. seriously. promised to be great. (: 
moving on moving on! i dont know you you dont know me. see! ahha. i'm happy! so dont go around saying my posts are emo. haha. their just melancholic. hahaha. XD it feels great to be a priest in the tp ward (:

Monday, September 29, 2008


now to talk about the dance. haha. a nice post that is marred by what i wrote just above but oh well. shucks man my first dance in ages! haha. lol. the ambience was magnificento. christmas lights hung around, forming hearts etc. the music was totally blowyourmindfantasticbombastic!
dj casey was in the groove man. haha. all his remixes rocked the dance floor. haha. totally awesome and imba. though we had some peacocks there that night who just had to spread their feathers. haha. but yeah, best i've gone to so far. haha. best attendance too. haha. but only danced one slow dance with myra. haha. so many other ppl never danced with in ages. like uhm, bea, kan...so many ppl! ohmygosh. and so many people i didnt know. hahaha. it was awesome. kid, you should have been there. really. XD come for the next one okay? (:



Sunday, September 28, 2008

wtvr. aaha. for once i did not tear the bread until bian-bian. haha. not bad sial! haha. talked about many ppl in byc today. jeff, justin and all the other brothers in my life. take care man. (if you are reading this) anything i can do, just ask. tp brothers ftw!

heard kan and familyy gave a talk. haha. not bad not bad. haha. sis eve teaching sign language this fri, joseph smith cantata this sat, shute's are leaving this thurs. so saaddd.....

Friday, September 26, 2008

i feel dumb (because of what i did). i feel some smart (because of the tests that are over). I feel crazy...

Monday, September 22, 2008

 i think i'm about to do something stupid, or wise, i don't know...
the musical life is being drained out of me coz of what happened. i've just lost the will and heart to sing. there used to be a purpose in music but now...its just a painful reminder. one last performance. one last show. and that might be the end. the end of the old me, the birth of a new person. the transformation is beginning. pumped weights like crazy today. once exams are over i'll pump even more. drive it out of my mind. change totally. if i can. if i'm allowed to. if i can bring myself to...

"Barker Boy isn't a title that is given. It's a title earned. Watch out boy. I'm back."

Sunday, September 21, 2008

天涯何处无方草,
何必单念一朵花。
闭着眼睛随便找,
乱找也比她也好。

ok. am i going insane? a chinese poem! come onn. hahaha. the naaaughty one says i'm becoming a chinese beng. maybe maybe not. but whatever. song, thanks man for the offer. haha. i'll seriously consider it. but dont you go off doing somethin without my knowledge man. give me some fun. alright?
i'm going crazy. i bet what i'm considering to do will make many people pissed. but oh well. i'm a changed man. sorry.
kid, thanks for every thing. sorry if this uncle is going to change. he has too. but he will always be a uncle (: and he will always be here to help you if you need. (:


"praise to the man. i'm a priest. i'm different. i must make sure i live up to it."

Saturday, September 20, 2008

lol. you big dufus! you knew it all the long. "the thing that brings you greatest joy also brings you greatest pain" you knew it but you didn't care. not one bit...no mood to blog but i have to say youth dance was great. (: RAAWRRRRR!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

2nd week as a Priest, 2nd time i blessed the Sacrament. coz cucumber boi came late XD haha. come on man! haha. but yeahh. i need extra tuition class on how to tear the bread. haha. i tore it all bian bian. like bleaurghh...haha. so yeahh. ahahha. then pull up the cloth also knock over 2 cups. haha. then give tray also give wrong person. hahaha. like WHAT! shux mann...vahppening. but it was cool. yeahh. the brotherhood of the priest. XD
so i went for mutual on fri. learnt the cha cha (cha) haha. really fun. are we gonna perform? haha. like the youth standards nite that time. then i feel like doing another performance too. not sing superman la. anything else.
so went to the gym on saturday and i'm aching all over. haha.
top few priorities after ass week:
go out with the group of 'em
go gym! muahahaha
do duty to God please
LEARN THE GUITAR! yesyes. (:

countdown to ass week. you can do it man! (self motivation. aha)

Sunday, September 7, 2008

So today was the first time that i blessed the Sacrament. and well, was it an experience. Was under the supervision of trent the man. haha. thanks so much. i felt so nervous but he helped loads.
home can be a haven on earth? don't joke.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008



random stuff. haha. but funny stufff XD



stuff i just found out that you can do on your imac. haha.

man you've worked so hard for it, DON'T let it go down the drain. DON'T forget that feeling you felt. DON't fall again. don't. "For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticings of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh a saint through the atonement of Christ the Lord, and becometh as a child, submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father."

Sunday, August 31, 2008

the past 2 weeks has been a spiritually packed journey. starting from the priest advancement. to be able to finally be a priest, the feeling is really wonderful. the journey was hard and took long but the rewards of the trial is sweet. then stake conference this week. call me a wuss or whatever you may but i cried 4times during the whole conference. the first time was during the prelude song "i love to see the temple" when the Primary children joined in to sing. really, when primary children sing, they sing with the voice of angels. literally. when they started to sing, i found that i just could not continue. no words would come out of my mouth. i just could not sing. i was choked by my tears. it was just beautiful. the speakers were also inspired by the Holy Spirit that I know for i was touched so many times. wonderful really.
then there was the fireside in the evening and Pres. Lai invited those married/intending to get married. ahaha. and of course I am so i decided to go! and it was great too. just had to cry again during the closing hymn. its these feelings that i never want to forget. such a spiritually packed period.
Well, i've decided to start preparing for my patriachal blessing. i think its about time. and well, i sure can use some divine guidance in my life. so there.

church=great friends, great feeling, great life.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

100 truths

SIX LASTS:
1. last beverage – soya bean. high in protein XP
2. last phone call – hmmm....good question next question.
3. last instant message – thanks lorr. go rub it in. no phone...
4. last song played – church, t-pain
5. last time you cried – today.
6. last text message sent to you says –like that again!
1. dated someone twice - nahh still waiting for that someone
2. been cheated on? – depends what you mean by cheated. haha
3. kissed someone & regretted it? – blehh no?!
4. lost someone special? – yeahh
5. been depressed - i'm human so yeahh
6. been drunk and threw up? – MORMONS DON'T DRINK!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. blue
2. orange
3. pink. haha

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. Made a new friend - uhmm yeahh
2. Fallen out of love → nahh. can't
3. Laughed until you cried → many times. haha
4. Met someone who changed your life -yes yes
5. Found out who your true friends were – found one new true friend.
6. Is there something you want to tell someone - YESS! ohmyyyy! yesyesyes.
7. Have you kissed anyone on your friend's list – nahh
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?: quite a number.
9. How many kids do you want to have? - 3! haha. 2sons, one daughter. haha
10. Do you have any pets? – i wish.
11. Change your name? - fred? aha.

RANDOMS:
1. What did you do for your last birthday? - qu chi fan. than go studyy. yeahh the sad life.
2. What time did you wake up today? – 7+ weekends!
3. What were you doing at midnight last night? – using the com?
4. Name something that you cannot wait for? – to go out with her! haha.
5. Last time you saw your mother? hmm. since awhile ago? same house what! wtheck. haha
6. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? – i have changed. just need to continue that change.
7. What are you listening to right now? - tab choir. haha
8. Kissed anyone on your TOP FRIENDS? - yuuuuck.
9. Who's getting on your nerves right now? – a BIG somebodyy. but chillax. this man doesnt show his emotions.
10. Most visited webpage? - KM? lols! hahaha. jk laa!

001. Whats your real name-wen jie
002. Nicknames - fred, wenjay, wen gee (i hate this name! hah) uncle! hahaha.
003. Eye color - i cant see my own eyes sorry. haha. someone help me can?
004. Zodiac sign→ Piscis
005. Male or female → male
006. Elementary – henry park
007. Middle School - henry park
008. Highschool - Acs barker/ NJ
010. Hair color – black
011. Long or short – short. haha. no choice right?
015. Are you health freak? - if i can help it. haha. but sometimes get too lazy. ahha
016. Height - 173
017. Do you have a crush on someone – hahaha! yeahh.
018. Do you like yourself - i try to. haha
019. Piercings – nope
020. Tattoos→ never
021. Righty or lefty → righty

FIRSTS :
022. First surgery → 6? on the chin. fell down while playing on the stairs. haha. stupid me.
023. First piercing → dun have
024. First best friend – haha. tough choice
025. First award – Sports day p1. haha.
026. First sport you joined - sailing
027. First pet - fish
028. First vacation - can't remember...haha
029. First concert – choir? haha
030. First crush – hahaha! shucks! i shalnt put her name down to spare her the embarrassment. haha

CURRENTLY :
049. Eating - nothing
050. Drinking - nothing.....
052. I'm about to – sleeep
053. Listening to – the sound made by the keyboard
055. Waiting for – my parents to chase me to bed. lol

THINGS YOU LIKE AND LOVE
056. Favorite band?: haha. none!
057. Best movie of all time?: Dark night! haha. i think
058. Chicken or Beef?: beef
059. You like pizza? ohh yummyyy
060. Best date you went on?: dun tell you! hha. (or maybe never had? haha. i just turned 16 man!)

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
068. Lips or eyes - EYESSSS
069. Hugs or kisses - I'll take anything i can get. haha
070. Shorter or taller - i don't mind shorter people (:
072. Romantic or spontaneous - romantic
074. Sensitive or loud - a combination
075. Hook-up or relationship - relationship
077. Badass or goodie goodie - goodie? hahaha.

HAVE YOU EVER
078. Kissed a stranger - noooo
079. Drank hard liquor - how many times i need to say! MORMON! tks. haha
080. Lost glasses/contacts - perfect eyesight (:
081. Ran away from home - yeahh. loong time ago.
084. Broken someone's heart - sadly yeahh. and it still hurts me.
085. Been arrested - haha. yeahh. coz i stole her heart! haha. jkjk!
086. Turned someone down - nope. i'm nice
087. Cried when someone died – of course...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself – usually
090. Miracles - yup
091. Love at first sight – haha. i'll have to say yes
092. Heaven - yarr...
093. Santa Claus - if it means i'll keep getting presents, yup! haha
095. Kiss on the first date - maybe?
096. Angels - mhmm

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - OH YEAHH. of course
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? – nopes
099. Do you believe in God? - 100%
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? – refer to top and see for yourself


you know its funny when your crush asks you who your crush is? haha

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

well well, okok. so i got my Priest advancement, and that is the most important thing really so I'm really happy. Its real hard work to prepare for it. But I'm glad I'm finally there. (:

so for the rest of the list...To be with her...blehh, why did I even start to think about that...Really, how great a chance do I have really. Laughable. Really pathetic. I'm right aren't I? But somehow, no matter how much I try to deny, how often i bluff myself, I know the truth. I'll fight for her till the very end. I just cant help it. WIll I do whatever it takes? Yes. Yes I will. Everything I have. Until I 1) Run out of energy 2) Get slapped by her. hahaha! So will someone get her to do that please. lol. I'm joking. haha. I'll fight. I will. Heck the rumours. I don't care about rumours. Not me. But I don't know about you and thats what scares me. But right now, I won't back down. Thats not me. Is this the right choice I'm making? Only time will tell I guess...Unless you will tell me...

So life is hard. You try your best, but sometimes, you get under-appreciated. But you live with it. You try your best, but others don't see it. You push all emotions down. Plaster that fake smile on your face, and pretend that nothing is wrong. You be the role that others need you to be. The punching bag etc. Pretend that nothing is wrong. Yes, you're a very good actor. But why can't you push down your feelings that you have for her like you manage to push down other emotions (okay I must not delve into that topic anymore today). So again, you plaster a smile on your face. Pretend nothing is wrong! Better to hurt yourself then others you say. Man, you're too nice for your own good. But you still do it. And if you can cheer someone else up with your false optimism? Thats fulfilling. And thats what the Uncle TRIES to do...But how long will he last before he falls...

Don't tell me. I don't want to knoww...
so drown yourself in words of poetry...the next piece is halfway done...

Monday, August 18, 2008

What I want:
To be with her...
My good GPA...
My Priest advancement...
To write more poems XP haha

To be continued

Sunday, August 17, 2008

I honestly seriously don't know what am I doing. Like really. Should I continue, should I just give up. I really have no idea. Like really, what are the chances of something developing. I'm not going to go into the whole list of things but really. Arh!!! Even if something does develop, can it be sustained? I really really don't know.
And so i say I'll stop, but chibi says why. And honestly I really don't know. To be frank, I am just lying to myself. There's no way I can forget her. You said it too kid, its not easy...truth be told, the only way I can truly forget her, is if I forget EVERYTHING related to her. I'm not ready to do that. I will never be. Because losing that part of me, means losing you kiddo. And no way. No way. I can't drop her. Not yet. And I won't ever stop being a uncle (:
So I'll keep trying. Keep on trying though the chances may be slim. Its fate that brought me to her that day. At least to me it is. I won't waste the chance that I have been given. Keep on trying, keep on waiting...Because thats what life is all about. Trying, and waiting...wish me luck chibi (:
And while I try, and while I wait, give me something to be happy about (: Show this uncle that you're better at this than he is and give him something to smile about!

Thanks kid for everything really. (:

Monday, August 11, 2008




oh myy~ whos the cute guy in the pic! XD haha. memories man.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

so today we went over to the Fu's place for dinner. was kinda like a farewell affair for tiff and chloe and the rest. yup. so the place was really packed. anyway, so because of that i missed the stake sem. fireside and stake choir. bleh. and stake choir was conducted by brother peterson. double bleh. and bro peterson is leaving at the end of this month. triple bleh! he has really brought about a huge change in our quorum. unimaginable, indescribable....
to be continued...

Sunday, August 3, 2008

went for hc voices concert and it was wahlala boom! great. haha. miss lim did a solo during encore. "bu liao qing" haha. so i uploaded the song here. haha. but she sang it much nicer. haha. anyway, uploaded my fav acap songs too. well at least some. haha. some are really random though. haha. whee nat day coming soon. hope can go out and study XD stake choir is the bomb! bassos rock! haha. we da man. hahaha.

Sunday, July 20, 2008



haha. yes i have coped the picture from the internet again instead of buying it. haha. anyway, this race has awakened me. if i EVER want to knock the elites out of their perch, i have to start training. but it sucks racing in the same category as all the elites. not fun at all.
so anyway, was supposed to go study with shinny, myra and the lil kid but they cannot make it. haha. so i went ro watch the debate. haha. which we came so close to winning! damn! next time. just they wait. ok. i am being pestered to log off now so being the nice person that i am i shall. haha.

Monday, July 14, 2008

had the race on saturday. triathlon. not bad~ but the current was insane. so that drained me loads. i'm gonna post some really old photos taken in m'sia. fine. maybe not THAT old

Sunday, July 6, 2008

I'm back, I'm black, I'm hungry. hahaha. obs was rather nice. LJ is suuper funny. and wise. zizhao is blurr. he thought a rambutan is a durian, a jackfruit is a mango and strawberries grow on trees. molly is insane, cowshit (cant help it sorry) asks stupid questions, eg. Sir! Can I drink water? and LJ will go 10..9..8..7.....1 or will go what do you think. haha. super funny. i need to go and sleep so i shall continue this tomorrow. haha.(:

Sunday, June 29, 2008

I'm going to be of for a week in obs. so gonna return home like totally darrrrrk. haha. then will only be back at 3pm? so i'll have to miss church. it'll even be too late to attend woodlands ward. haha. which i have been going to quite often. hahah.so well, this is it! zai jian! (:

Thursday, June 26, 2008


one pic from the recent race.

this will be a short post. haha. one i realise how dead i am. theres obs next week for 7days. then after one more week will be my next race. rawrrr. badbadbad....gotta go swim. haha. YES. and i do realise i owe many people their bday mars bar. since uhm. april? coming coming. sorreee! haha.

Monday, June 23, 2008

i feel like writing another essay. haha

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Its Friday and after the long bus ride during which time I spent thinking, (yes thinking. NOT emo-ing. Please) about what life means to me. (yarr. Intellectual activity. Be surprise!) also thinking about the day and the events that have just transpired. Thus I have decided to write this little essay? What is life.

You know in life, the hugest choices are usually easy to make. Coz the choice is just too darn obvious. Like drugs for example. Instinctively you say nooooo. Simple! Tadah! But it’s the small ones that are a pain in the neck.

As I was thinking, I likened life to a bed of roses. Really. Because it’s beautiful. Imagine, like a bed of roses, meticulously planted and carefully nurtured, so was the world created in the same manner. But roses have thorns! And that’s why its so much like life. Its beautiful, but can be painful. And you know in that bed of roses, there are flowers of many colours.

There’s a white rose. And lets say that signifies eternal life. Splendid flower! But yes there are thorns. The sacrifice is earthly temporal wants perhaps? Like fame? Or maybe wealth? Pride too?

Then there’s the black rose. Which is suppose to be quite rare and valuable, but since white = eternal life, I shall use black = temporal stuff. That flower is also tempting. Imagine. Riches, popularity etc. Whatever you want! But the thorns are huge. Eternal consequences will probably be it if one becomes too obsessed with it.. Do you really want that flower?

Then of course. How can we miss out the red rose. Oh yes. Bingo! Its love. Its funny how life has a sense of humour huh. I used to think that the best way to avoid love was to pile myself and bury myself in work. So I did that! Joined debates and choir in an attempt to shut myself up from the world. Then oh life with its sense of humour. The very thing that was supposed to keep me away from such emotions brought me to it. The only reason why I got to know her is because of my CCA. And I don’t regret it. Although nothing much has come out of it.

So love. A splendid rose too huh. But yes. Thorns in it too. You’re results perhaps? Or maybe it might even be one of your childhood best friends? Just maybe. You may never know.

But in this journey I am so grateful to have 2 things.
1) My friends who have always helped me, lifted me up, slapped some sense into me. Haha. Most recent being casey and trent and the lil kidd. (haha. That’s what I’m calling you from now on. Xp) thanks so much. Really.
2) Christ and everything he has given to me. When I prick my finger on the rose, he is always there to bandage it for me.

So there. My little thesis?
Just something random. Its just weird how the normally talkative me is totally silent when in her presence. Queer?

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Jiayi!

  1. Jiayi can't sweat!
  2. If you toss Jiayi 10000 times, she will not land heads 5000 times, but more like 4950, because her head weighs more and thus ends up on the bottom.
  3. The National Heart Foundation recommends eating Jiayi at least three times a week.
  4. Jiayi will often glow under UV light!
  5. The only planet that rotates on its side is Jiayi.
  6. The difference between Jiayi and a village is that Jiayi does not have a church.
  7. If you lie on your back with your legs stretched it is impossible to sink in Jiayi!
  8. Jiayiolatry is the mindless worship of Jiayi.
  9. About one tenth of Jiayi is permanently covered in ice.
  10. American Airlines saved forty thousand dollars a year by eliminating Jiayi from each salad served in first class!
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tks so much lil kidd for all the help! haha (: