i love his pic. haha. 

what am i?

i am a barker boy,

i am an njcian. Proud to be (yar rite)

i am a priest,

I AM A UNCLE! XD hahaha.

JOSEPH SMITH CANTATA THIS SATURDAY! and i DEMAND that everyone goes for it. go to newton mrt, walk towards balmoral, see the church? turn in thats right (: 7pm good good. haha. seriously. promised to be great. (: 

moving on moving on! i dont know you you dont know me. see! ahha. i'm happy! so dont go around saying my posts are emo. haha. their just melancholic. hahaha. XD it feels great to be a priest in the tp ward (:

now to talk about the dance. haha. a nice post that is marred by what i wrote just above but oh well. shucks man my first dance in ages! haha. lol. the ambience was magnificento. christmas lights hung around, forming hearts etc. the music was totally blowyourmindfantasticbombastic!

dj casey was in the groove man. haha. all his remixes rocked the dance floor. haha. totally awesome and imba. though we had some peacocks there that night who just had to spread their feathers. haha. but yeah, best i've gone to so far. haha. best attendance too. haha. but only danced one slow dance with myra. haha. so many other ppl never danced with in ages. like uhm, bea, kan...so many ppl! ohmygosh. and so many people i didnt know. hahaha. it was awesome. kid, you should have been there. really. XD come for the next one okay? (:

wtvr. aaha. for once i did not tear the bread until bian-bian. haha. not bad sial! haha. talked about many ppl in byc today. jeff, justin and all the other brothers in my life. take care man. (if you are reading this) anything i can do, just ask. tp brothers ftw!

heard kan and familyy gave a talk. haha. not bad not bad. haha. sis eve teaching sign language this fri, joseph smith cantata this sat, shute's are leaving this thurs. so saaddd.....

i feel dumb (because of what i did). i feel some smart (because of the tests that are over). I feel crazy...

 i think i'm about to do something stupid, or wise, i don't know...

the musical life is being drained out of me coz of what happened. i've just lost the will and heart to sing. there used to be a purpose in music but now...its just a painful reminder. one last performance. one last show. and that might be the end. the end of the old me, the birth of a new person. the transformation is beginning. pumped weights like crazy today. once exams are over i'll pump even more. drive it out of my mind. change totally. if i can. if i'm allowed to. if i can bring myself to...

"Barker Boy isn't a title that is given. It's a title earned. Watch out boy. I'm back."

天涯何处无方草，
何必单念一朵花。
闭着眼睛随便找，
乱找也比她也好。
ok. am i going insane? a chinese poem! come onn. hahaha. the naaaughty one says i'm becoming a chinese beng. maybe maybe not. but whatever. song, thanks man for the offer. haha. i'll seriously consider it. but dont you go off doing somethin without my knowledge man. give me some fun. alright?
i'm going crazy. i bet what i'm considering to do will make many people pissed. but oh well. i'm a changed man. sorry.
kid, thanks for every thing. sorry if this uncle is going to change. he has too. but he will always be a uncle (: and he will always be here to help you if you need. (:


"praise to the man. i'm a priest. i'm different. i must make sure i live up to it."

lol. you big dufus! you knew it all the long. "the thing that brings you greatest joy also brings you greatest pain" you knew it but you didn't care. not one bit...no mood to blog but i have to say youth dance was great. (: RAAWRRRRR!

2nd week as a Priest, 2nd time i blessed the Sacrament. coz cucumber boi came late XD haha. come on man! haha. but yeahh. i need extra tuition class on how to tear the bread. haha. i tore it all bian bian. like bleaurghh...haha. so yeahh. ahahha. then pull up the cloth also knock over 2 cups. haha. then give tray also give wrong person. hahaha. like WHAT! shux mann...vahppening. but it was cool. yeahh. the brotherhood of the priest. XD
so i went for mutual on fri. learnt the cha cha (cha) haha. really fun. are we gonna perform? haha. like the youth standards nite that time. then i feel like doing another performance too. not sing superman la. anything else.
so went to the gym on saturday and i'm aching all over. haha.
top few priorities after ass week:
go out with the group of 'em
go gym! muahahaha
do duty to God please
LEARN THE GUITAR! yesyes. (:

countdown to ass week. you can do it man! (self motivation. aha)

So today was the first time that i blessed the Sacrament. and well, was it an experience. Was under the supervision of trent the man. haha. thanks so much. i felt so nervous but he helped loads.
home can be a haven on earth? don't joke.

random stuff. haha. but funny stufff XD



stuff i just found out that you can do on your imac. haha.

man you've worked so hard for it, DON'T let it go down the drain. DON'T forget that feeling you felt. DON't fall again. don't. "For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticings of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh a saint through the atonement of Christ the Lord, and becometh as a child, submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father."