since the 5th of june? i feel like a fool...a fool that has been played with...yes i know i promised jiayi i wont go do anything to find him. but i really cnt help it sometimes. walk past hwa chong and see the bunch of them doing "drills" i feel like just walking into the middle of them and seek him out. but a promise is a promise. dnu if he still reads the blog but if he does. haha. oh wells. a promise i made a promise i will keep. called honor. smth that is not that common. sadly. oh well, i wont seek him out but that doesnt mean i didnt hope
that he wont seek me out. was hoping that he wld be dumb enuff to make a confrontation when i went to hc for the choir workshop in nov. cld have worked out some. has been long since i got into a good exercise. dang. oh well. but i prob wont do anything to him. for personal reasons that i'm not going to state. so hope he brings some friends that he doesnt like much so that at least he wont miss them. blehh. forgiveness is such a hard thing...