the musical life is being drained out of me coz of what happened. i've just lost the will and heart to sing. there used to be a purpose in music but now...its just a painful reminder. one last performance. one last show. and that might be the end. the end of the old me, the birth of a new person. the transformation is beginning. pumped weights like crazy today. once exams are over i'll pump even more. drive it out of my mind. change totally. if i can. if i'm allowed to. if i can bring myself to...

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