the past 2 weeks has been a spiritually packed journey. starting from the priest advancement. to be able to finally be a priest, the feeling is really wonderful. the journey was hard and took long but the rewards of the trial is sweet. then stake conference this week. call me a wuss or whatever you may but i cried 4times during the whole conference. the first time was during the prelude song "i love to see the temple" when the Primary children joined in to sing. really, when primary children sing, they sing with the voice of angels. literally. when they started to sing, i found that i just could not continue. no words would come out of my mouth. i just could not sing. i was choked by my tears. it was just beautiful. the speakers were also inspired by the Holy Spirit that I know for i was touched so many times. wonderful really.
then there was the fireside in the evening and Pres. Lai invited those married/intending to get married. ahaha. and of course I am so i decided to go! and it was great too. just had to cry again during the closing hymn. its these feelings that i never want to forget. such a spiritually packed period.
Well, i've decided to start preparing for my patriachal blessing. i think its about time. and well, i sure can use some divine guidance in my life. so there.
church=great friends, great feeling, great life.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
100 truths
SIX LASTS:
1. last beverage – soya bean. high in protein XP
2. last phone call – hmmm....good question next question.
3. last instant message – thanks lorr. go rub it in. no phone...
4. last song played – church, t-pain
5. last time you cried – today.
6. last text message sent to you says –like that again!
1. dated someone twice - nahh still waiting for that someone
2. been cheated on? – depends what you mean by cheated. haha
3. kissed someone & regretted it? – blehh no?!
4. lost someone special? – yeahh
5. been depressed - i'm human so yeahh
6. been drunk and threw up? – MORMONS DON'T DRINK!
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. blue
2. orange
3. pink. haha
THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. Made a new friend - uhmm yeahh
2. Fallen out of love → nahh. can't
3. Laughed until you cried → many times. haha
4. Met someone who changed your life -yes yes
5. Found out who your true friends were – found one new true friend.
6. Is there something you want to tell someone - YESS! ohmyyyy! yesyesyes.
7. Have you kissed anyone on your friend's list – nahh
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?: quite a number.
9. How many kids do you want to have? - 3! haha. 2sons, one daughter. haha
10. Do you have any pets? – i wish.
11. Change your name? - fred? aha.
RANDOMS:
1. What did you do for your last birthday? - qu chi fan. than go studyy. yeahh the sad life.
2. What time did you wake up today? – 7+ weekends!
3. What were you doing at midnight last night? – using the com?
4. Name something that you cannot wait for? – to go out with her! haha.
5. Last time you saw your mother? hmm. since awhile ago? same house what! wtheck. haha
6. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? – i have changed. just need to continue that change.
7. What are you listening to right now? - tab choir. haha
8. Kissed anyone on your TOP FRIENDS? - yuuuuck.
9. Who's getting on your nerves right now? – a BIG somebodyy. but chillax. this man doesnt show his emotions.
10. Most visited webpage? - KM? lols! hahaha. jk laa!
001. Whats your real name-wen jie
002. Nicknames - fred, wenjay, wen gee (i hate this name! hah) uncle! hahaha.
003. Eye color - i cant see my own eyes sorry. haha. someone help me can?
004. Zodiac sign→ Piscis
005. Male or female → male
006. Elementary – henry park
007. Middle School - henry park
008. Highschool - Acs barker/ NJ
010. Hair color – black
011. Long or short – short. haha. no choice right?
015. Are you health freak? - if i can help it. haha. but sometimes get too lazy. ahha
016. Height - 173
017. Do you have a crush on someone – hahaha! yeahh.
018. Do you like yourself - i try to. haha
019. Piercings – nope
020. Tattoos→ never
021. Righty or lefty → righty
FIRSTS :
022. First surgery → 6? on the chin. fell down while playing on the stairs. haha. stupid me.
023. First piercing → dun have
024. First best friend – haha. tough choice
025. First award – Sports day p1. haha.
026. First sport you joined - sailing
027. First pet - fish
028. First vacation - can't remember...haha
029. First concert – choir? haha
030. First crush – hahaha! shucks! i shalnt put her name down to spare her the embarrassment. haha
CURRENTLY :
049. Eating - nothing
050. Drinking - nothing.....
052. I'm about to – sleeep
053. Listening to – the sound made by the keyboard
055. Waiting for – my parents to chase me to bed. lol
THINGS YOU LIKE AND LOVE
056. Favorite band?: haha. none!
057. Best movie of all time?: Dark night! haha. i think
058. Chicken or Beef?: beef
059. You like pizza? ohh yummyyy
060. Best date you went on?: dun tell you! hha. (or maybe never had? haha. i just turned 16 man!)
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
068. Lips or eyes - EYESSSS
069. Hugs or kisses - I'll take anything i can get. haha
070. Shorter or taller - i don't mind shorter people (:
072. Romantic or spontaneous - romantic
074. Sensitive or loud - a combination
075. Hook-up or relationship - relationship
077. Badass or goodie goodie - goodie? hahaha.
HAVE YOU EVER
078. Kissed a stranger - noooo
079. Drank hard liquor - how many times i need to say! MORMON! tks. haha
080. Lost glasses/contacts - perfect eyesight (:
081. Ran away from home - yeahh. loong time ago.
084. Broken someone's heart - sadly yeahh. and it still hurts me.
085. Been arrested - haha. yeahh. coz i stole her heart! haha. jkjk!
086. Turned someone down - nope. i'm nice
087. Cried when someone died – of course...
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself – usually
090. Miracles - yup
091. Love at first sight – haha. i'll have to say yes
092. Heaven - yarr...
093. Santa Claus - if it means i'll keep getting presents, yup! haha
095. Kiss on the first date - maybe?
096. Angels - mhmm
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - OH YEAHH. of course
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? – nopes
099. Do you believe in God? - 100%
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? – refer to top and see for yourself
you know its funny when your crush asks you who your crush is? haha
1. last beverage – soya bean. high in protein XP
2. last phone call – hmmm....good question next question.
3. last instant message – thanks lorr. go rub it in. no phone...
4. last song played – church, t-pain
5. last time you cried – today.
6. last text message sent to you says –like that again!
1. dated someone twice - nahh still waiting for that someone
2. been cheated on? – depends what you mean by cheated. haha
3. kissed someone & regretted it? – blehh no?!
4. lost someone special? – yeahh
5. been depressed - i'm human so yeahh
6. been drunk and threw up? – MORMONS DON'T DRINK!
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. blue
2. orange
3. pink. haha
THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. Made a new friend - uhmm yeahh
2. Fallen out of love → nahh. can't
3. Laughed until you cried → many times. haha
4. Met someone who changed your life -yes yes
5. Found out who your true friends were – found one new true friend.
6. Is there something you want to tell someone - YESS! ohmyyyy! yesyesyes.
7. Have you kissed anyone on your friend's list – nahh
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?: quite a number.
9. How many kids do you want to have? - 3! haha. 2sons, one daughter. haha
10. Do you have any pets? – i wish.
11. Change your name? - fred? aha.
RANDOMS:
1. What did you do for your last birthday? - qu chi fan. than go studyy. yeahh the sad life.
2. What time did you wake up today? – 7+ weekends!
3. What were you doing at midnight last night? – using the com?
4. Name something that you cannot wait for? – to go out with her! haha.
5. Last time you saw your mother? hmm. since awhile ago? same house what! wtheck. haha
6. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? – i have changed. just need to continue that change.
7. What are you listening to right now? - tab choir. haha
8. Kissed anyone on your TOP FRIENDS? - yuuuuck.
9. Who's getting on your nerves right now? – a BIG somebodyy. but chillax. this man doesnt show his emotions.
10. Most visited webpage? - KM? lols! hahaha. jk laa!
001. Whats your real name-wen jie
002. Nicknames - fred, wenjay, wen gee (i hate this name! hah) uncle! hahaha.
003. Eye color - i cant see my own eyes sorry. haha. someone help me can?
004. Zodiac sign→ Piscis
005. Male or female → male
006. Elementary – henry park
007. Middle School - henry park
008. Highschool - Acs barker/ NJ
010. Hair color – black
011. Long or short – short. haha. no choice right?
015. Are you health freak? - if i can help it. haha. but sometimes get too lazy. ahha
016. Height - 173
017. Do you have a crush on someone – hahaha! yeahh.
018. Do you like yourself - i try to. haha
019. Piercings – nope
020. Tattoos→ never
021. Righty or lefty → righty
FIRSTS :
022. First surgery → 6? on the chin. fell down while playing on the stairs. haha. stupid me.
023. First piercing → dun have
024. First best friend – haha. tough choice
025. First award – Sports day p1. haha.
026. First sport you joined - sailing
027. First pet - fish
028. First vacation - can't remember...haha
029. First concert – choir? haha
030. First crush – hahaha! shucks! i shalnt put her name down to spare her the embarrassment. haha
CURRENTLY :
049. Eating - nothing
050. Drinking - nothing.....
052. I'm about to – sleeep
053. Listening to – the sound made by the keyboard
055. Waiting for – my parents to chase me to bed. lol
THINGS YOU LIKE AND LOVE
056. Favorite band?: haha. none!
057. Best movie of all time?: Dark night! haha. i think
058. Chicken or Beef?: beef
059. You like pizza? ohh yummyyy
060. Best date you went on?: dun tell you! hha. (or maybe never had? haha. i just turned 16 man!)
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
068. Lips or eyes - EYESSSS
069. Hugs or kisses - I'll take anything i can get. haha
070. Shorter or taller - i don't mind shorter people (:
072. Romantic or spontaneous - romantic
074. Sensitive or loud - a combination
075. Hook-up or relationship - relationship
077. Badass or goodie goodie - goodie? hahaha.
HAVE YOU EVER
078. Kissed a stranger - noooo
079. Drank hard liquor - how many times i need to say! MORMON! tks. haha
080. Lost glasses/contacts - perfect eyesight (:
081. Ran away from home - yeahh. loong time ago.
084. Broken someone's heart - sadly yeahh. and it still hurts me.
085. Been arrested - haha. yeahh. coz i stole her heart! haha. jkjk!
086. Turned someone down - nope. i'm nice
087. Cried when someone died – of course...
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself – usually
090. Miracles - yup
091. Love at first sight – haha. i'll have to say yes
092. Heaven - yarr...
093. Santa Claus - if it means i'll keep getting presents, yup! haha
095. Kiss on the first date - maybe?
096. Angels - mhmm
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - OH YEAHH. of course
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? – nopes
099. Do you believe in God? - 100%
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? – refer to top and see for yourself
you know its funny when your crush asks you who your crush is? haha
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
well well, okok. so i got my Priest advancement, and that is the most important thing really so I'm really happy. Its real hard work to prepare for it. But I'm glad I'm finally there. (:
so for the rest of the list...To be with her...blehh, why did I even start to think about that...Really, how great a chance do I have really. Laughable. Really pathetic. I'm right aren't I? But somehow, no matter how much I try to deny, how often i bluff myself, I know the truth. I'll fight for her till the very end. I just cant help it. WIll I do whatever it takes? Yes. Yes I will. Everything I have. Until I 1) Run out of energy 2) Get slapped by her. hahaha! So will someone get her to do that please. lol. I'm joking. haha. I'll fight. I will. Heck the rumours. I don't care about rumours. Not me. But I don't know about you and thats what scares me. But right now, I won't back down. Thats not me. Is this the right choice I'm making? Only time will tell I guess...Unless you will tell me...
So life is hard. You try your best, but sometimes, you get under-appreciated. But you live with it. You try your best, but others don't see it. You push all emotions down. Plaster that fake smile on your face, and pretend that nothing is wrong. You be the role that others need you to be. The punching bag etc. Pretend that nothing is wrong. Yes, you're a very good actor. But why can't you push down your feelings that you have for her like you manage to push down other emotions (okay I must not delve into that topic anymore today). So again, you plaster a smile on your face. Pretend nothing is wrong! Better to hurt yourself then others you say. Man, you're too nice for your own good. But you still do it. And if you can cheer someone else up with your false optimism? Thats fulfilling. And thats what the Uncle TRIES to do...But how long will he last before he falls...
Don't tell me. I don't want to knoww...
so drown yourself in words of poetry...the next piece is halfway done...
so for the rest of the list...To be with her...blehh, why did I even start to think about that...Really, how great a chance do I have really. Laughable. Really pathetic. I'm right aren't I? But somehow, no matter how much I try to deny, how often i bluff myself, I know the truth. I'll fight for her till the very end. I just cant help it. WIll I do whatever it takes? Yes. Yes I will. Everything I have. Until I 1) Run out of energy 2) Get slapped by her. hahaha! So will someone get her to do that please. lol. I'm joking. haha. I'll fight. I will. Heck the rumours. I don't care about rumours. Not me. But I don't know about you and thats what scares me. But right now, I won't back down. Thats not me. Is this the right choice I'm making? Only time will tell I guess...Unless you will tell me...
So life is hard. You try your best, but sometimes, you get under-appreciated. But you live with it. You try your best, but others don't see it. You push all emotions down. Plaster that fake smile on your face, and pretend that nothing is wrong. You be the role that others need you to be. The punching bag etc. Pretend that nothing is wrong. Yes, you're a very good actor. But why can't you push down your feelings that you have for her like you manage to push down other emotions (okay I must not delve into that topic anymore today). So again, you plaster a smile on your face. Pretend nothing is wrong! Better to hurt yourself then others you say. Man, you're too nice for your own good. But you still do it. And if you can cheer someone else up with your false optimism? Thats fulfilling. And thats what the Uncle TRIES to do...But how long will he last before he falls...
Don't tell me. I don't want to knoww...
so drown yourself in words of poetry...the next piece is halfway done...
Monday, August 18, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
I honestly seriously don't know what am I doing. Like really. Should I continue, should I just give up. I really have no idea. Like really, what are the chances of something developing. I'm not going to go into the whole list of things but really. Arh!!! Even if something does develop, can it be sustained? I really really don't know.
And so i say I'll stop, but chibi says why. And honestly I really don't know. To be frank, I am just lying to myself. There's no way I can forget her. You said it too kid, its not easy...truth be told, the only way I can truly forget her, is if I forget EVERYTHING related to her. I'm not ready to do that. I will never be. Because losing that part of me, means losing you kiddo. And no way. No way. I can't drop her. Not yet. And I won't ever stop being a uncle (:
So I'll keep trying. Keep on trying though the chances may be slim. Its fate that brought me to her that day. At least to me it is. I won't waste the chance that I have been given. Keep on trying, keep on waiting...Because thats what life is all about. Trying, and waiting...wish me luck chibi (:
And while I try, and while I wait, give me something to be happy about (: Show this uncle that you're better at this than he is and give him something to smile about!
Thanks kid for everything really. (:
And so i say I'll stop, but chibi says why. And honestly I really don't know. To be frank, I am just lying to myself. There's no way I can forget her. You said it too kid, its not easy...truth be told, the only way I can truly forget her, is if I forget EVERYTHING related to her. I'm not ready to do that. I will never be. Because losing that part of me, means losing you kiddo. And no way. No way. I can't drop her. Not yet. And I won't ever stop being a uncle (:
So I'll keep trying. Keep on trying though the chances may be slim. Its fate that brought me to her that day. At least to me it is. I won't waste the chance that I have been given. Keep on trying, keep on waiting...Because thats what life is all about. Trying, and waiting...wish me luck chibi (:
And while I try, and while I wait, give me something to be happy about (: Show this uncle that you're better at this than he is and give him something to smile about!
Thanks kid for everything really. (:
Sunday, August 10, 2008
so today we went over to the Fu's place for dinner. was kinda like a farewell affair for tiff and chloe and the rest. yup. so the place was really packed. anyway, so because of that i missed the stake sem. fireside and stake choir. bleh. and stake choir was conducted by brother peterson. double bleh. and bro peterson is leaving at the end of this month. triple bleh! he has really brought about a huge change in our quorum. unimaginable, indescribable....
to be continued...
to be continued...
Sunday, August 3, 2008
went for hc voices concert and it was wahlala boom! great. haha. miss lim did a solo during encore. "bu liao qing" haha. so i uploaded the song here. haha. but she sang it much nicer. haha. anyway, uploaded my fav acap songs too. well at least some. haha. some are really random though. haha. whee nat day coming soon. hope can go out and study XD stake choir is the bomb! bassos rock! haha. we da man. hahaha.
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