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random rantings, awesome alliterations

unbelievable. haha. i stopped going to lawrence's blog for awhile coz it was super lame, went back today and it just got lamer. lol. but that being said, it was super funny. hahah. joker. dang i miss my o3 class. all the good ol' times. acting flowers for Algernon, after lunch bridge sessions, and all other random moments with crazy people like zh, ryan, cris, law, justin blah blah. dang miss it.
learning about memories in psyche.
Flashbulb memories- an episodic memory (the i remember when...memory) that you remember in EXACT detail due to the emotional response it stirs lah lah lah.
my real big flashbulb memory? rugby at the end of the school last year. fumbling zh's pass that could have won us the champion place. dnu why but yeh. flashbulb memory. i remember it in EXACT detail and it drives me mad. gahhh.
so realized that there are so many people that I havent talked to in a long while. ben, han, trent, many many more...bah. so heard that singapore is having a countdown dance again. no fair.

total time slept after 2days: 3x20mins
currently in you might not want to piss me off zombie mode...

work due tmrw:
10page psyche assignment
developmental psychology research project
international politics research project
AP language essay
many many more...
pft

total hours of sleep last night: 0.3hours
lets see how long i can last...

a little here, a little there. my debater's "bible"

this is a picture of us on the bunk boat ride...anyway, i was talking to nelson from ACJC, and denise frm NJ, updating myself on the debates scene. nelson was really impressed with Ben. not surprising, he has good identification and organization of points. NJ has really progressed. and that is good. the team has found its niche. knowledge, good identification and organization. our best trait, consistency and team dynamics. that enabled us to beat supposedly strong hwa chong last year despite our supposedly presentable but weak style. those who know me will know that I am all for style. it doesnt really matter what you say, its a matter of how you say it. I believe that I have at the very least decent if not a relatively good style. all these i credit to super coaches and seniors: Jon and David Pflug, Vishal, YOng Wei, Mich, MArk, Teck Wee, Yinli, Pinli, just to name a few. style has pulled me through and to me is the key element. If I win I win with style, and even if I lose, I go down in style. however as I said, NJ has found our strength thanks to good seniors too. I believe that with a little infusion of style, we would be really good. if I may be bold, perhaps better than the WSDC team of Ren Jie and Liki. Yes they are good but our brains are better than theirs I believe. I just feel so proud of how far NJ has gone.
this is the guys of the MUN team, I have no idea why they are carrying me. my shirts a little wet coz of the pyramid making. someone's leg was wet...lol
and this is my korean teacher! like coincidence! we were wearing pink! xD great minds think alike. haha. then i went to church the next day and kandace was wearing pink too. haha. really great minds. okok choir class! later!

THIMUN 2

presenting the Shekou International School THIMUN team 09. see if you can spot me without looking at the faces. haha.
welcome to a random moment along CQ. haha. but so yeh. this is friends of THIMUN. I had my barker bro's kenneth, leroy and fred look me up. chilled at the lobby of my hotel and talked bout crazy stuff for a looong time. dang it has been long since i met them and it was good to catch up with them. they changed but yet are still the same. it was cool hanging out with them again. went out for dinner with sis, marcus, uncle philip and xiao
gu gu at swensens! haha. ice-cream and all xD then went to meet up with NJ peeps. I was laate. lost my wayy big time...so there was ryan, law, zh, justin, jac, emily, and liz. ryan got new specs, law looks as skinny and fast as he used to, zh looks less like a teddybear more like a tennis player, lol, justin looks like he runs 42km for fun now, emilyy uhh like she went on a diet, jac still as piglet, and liz...looks like a friggin refugee that have been starving to death. haha. i think slim and sexy is what they like to call it...but so i was late so had to treat them to dessert. lol. at bk. then went to bugis coz emily wanted to buy something and there i bumped into my shekou friends. coincidence no? or mayb its just BIG proof that singapore is small. anyway on that same day, i popped into church where they just finished seminary and institute grad. i love doing that. popping in unexpected. like the previous time and then this time. myra still looks like shes in p3, kandace finally admits that pink is hawt with her pink shirt, john looks like he grew taller. dang i miss em.
and so friends i got to know because of MUN. there was this cool malaysian dude from Ipoh, forgot his name. haha. melody and devvyy spent a lot of time with and they were retarded xD still are...and i got to know the krazy koreans better. haha. well, ok i should get to do more work done. mayb there will be a part 3. haha

our attempt to make a pyramid. hha.

THIMUN 1

So i think a THIMUN 09 post is in order. or maybe a few THIMUN posts with this being the first of the series. The last time I went for THIMUN was when i was what 13? That is equivalent to Sec 1, or Grade 7? I can proudly say that I did absolutely nothing then. Presented one truely lame Point of Information and that was it. But hey! I was young! and practically everyone there were juniors or seniors~! This time I managed to hold the floor for quite awhile, took the floor whenever I felt sleepy, made a few jokes here and there and wahla! best speaker of ECOSOC for whatever that is worth. One thing remained the same with this conference though, I had a 3rd World country. Somalia this time, Zimbabwe during the last conference. What does these 2 countries have other than a heck load of sand? I have no idea...
so it totally rawked being a senior in THIMUN coz you're actually respected as some form of authority in some matters. got interviewed, got on MUN TV and of course got to know a few new people, with melodyy and devvy being the funnest, kraziest, and cooolest. xD haha. don't let it get to your heads...xD of course the fact that they are Singaporeans help. ohh~! of course there were other Singaporeans there...tight short pants hwa chongers (sorry for the stereotype but 99% true no?) and well hwa chongers are nice people yehh but. lol...(again only for 99% mayb a little lesser) pompous people pho pink pey pow pit pall (haha. kk that was retarded). yehh. so they don't really count. the dance was fun. and funny if you see the hwa chong people try to dance (fyi I know I can't dance thats why I don't try...) and then there was this catholic high debater that I recognized who was so not in THIMUN, but crashed the dance again and thought that he could dance...well he saw me and his face turned color. like not even joking the room was dark and you could see his face go white...probably remembered how nj trashed his precious seemingly almighty cat high last year at JG's. I wanted to do just that ever since I saw Christiano and the other high-pitched voiced guy oh yeh Antiono? when I was in Barker. So eat that, hope loosing felt good (:
ok but less about social stuff, more serious stuff in this post...I participated in only a few topics
. Poverty eradication, sustainable patterns of consumption and production
,rights of indigenous people and i think there is one more. why only these topics? coz these were the less boring ones of the group where there was some interesting oppositions (: Russia was way funny so was Algeria. Algeria never wanted the debates to end, kept trying to extend debate time and that almost got him killed. JOKE. haha. he was a way cool indian duude. well i dont really feel like discussing bout those issues now xP so chowz and on to THIMUN part 2

The Prayer

Song sang by June Kim and I during a recent concert. Doesn't sound perfect but still friggin awesome to me.
We will probably be cutting a CD together with other great vocalists such as Coryne Farnsworth and Emily Sears so stay tuned for that.
Hope you like the music and I'll always be praying, for all of you. THis song goes out to you.

coincidence?

Life is not always easy; it was not meant to be so. It's a time of testing and proving. We learn to handle disappointment and sorrow, which in turn builds character and increases our compassion for others.
THis is a quote taken from Kandace's blog and dang, she is must either be a fortune teller, a genius or she's MEGA into the Spirit today. lol. Scary how she can read my mind, speak with a force that cuts right into my soul. yeh Kandace's WOW I call it. But its such a coincidence because this is exactly what I was thinking about this week! Creepily Cool Non? And it kinda ties into the theme that I have been refering to. Perspective and change.

Failure was a word that NEVER existed in my dictionary. I hated that word, condemned it, and banned it from ever being used whenever I was prepping my team for a competition. I have ran a few good races, burned all competition away. We have sang some good songs, blew the audience away. I have won debates and best speaker awards, chewed up my opponents and spat them out again after I was done with them. No mercy. No failure. Ever. But then recently I reaxamined my life...

My childhood friends inactive from church. Deacon's president, Teacher's president, and most importantly friend. And I didnt manage to do a thing. Didnt manage to change a friggin thing. Failed.

Chibi. Had/has boyfriend problems and of course! lol. I am the best one to ask...Havnt managed to help her out much. Havnt been able to be there when she needed. Havnt managed to find the courage to introduce the Gospel to her. Failed.

And now. Matt Sears and a whole load of other people. Friends who have helped me out countless times. Friends who have pulled me up when I was down. Friends whom I promised. Promised that no matter when, no matter where, no matter what, if they needed help, I would be there to help them solve whatever troubles they were facing. THey have helped me, I havnt managed to help them at all. Failed.

And when it comes to my role as a son and a brother. Gosh lets not even get started on that.

Why cant God be more direct. Why cant he tell me that:"Hey, this is what would get Max to want to come to church again" or "Yo, Coryne likes this, she needs that and you can help her with this. It would make you a better friend." Why cant he tell me exactly what I can and need to do to fulfill my responsibilities and callings.

Failure is in my life more that I cared to imagine. And this is where Kandace's qoute strikes me hard.
Life is not always easy; it was not meant to be so. It's a time of testing and proving. We learn to handle disappointment and sorrow, which in turn builds character and increases our compassion for others.

I guess that failure might be a part of life of life that i have to go through. Its part of the process of falling down, picking ourselves up and learning from that fall. Its a humbling experiece that makes us more relient and grateful to God. Its not necessarily a bad thing. Dont get me wrong its not that I was proud. I attributed EVERYTHING to God. Thanked Him for ALL I have. But shoot me. Because something like this was mentioned in my patriachal blessing. Something along the lines that I will learn from experiences that would not be too hard, to be humble and to learn how to serve my fellow men to the fullest, to know how to fulfill my calling. Its not the exact wording but its the general idea.
I guess failure IS needed. A certain degree of it anyway. Its not going to be easy. Its going to be pain. Disappointment and sorrow.

Nobody knows what I am going through. I am literally wrecked with mental torment over my failures. My inability to magnify my church callings. My patheticness as a friend. My failings as a son and a brother. THey say character takes time to build as you go through the refiner's fire. This fire sure hurts. Bad. But I know. I must trust that its for my good.

Remember how I talked about the people who bring about change? The REAAALLY successful ones, you call them Presidents and Nobel Prize winners. Obama, Ghandi, MArtin Luther King Jr. THe unsuccessful ones, you call them terrorists and psychopaths. Osama, Bush etc. (yeah I like my little joke.) At the end of the day what am I? I fear I am more a psychopath. I have failed in my goal to change. And well, perhaps the sooner I stop trying to, the better things might become. Gosh how I've messed up and failed. I should close this chapter of my life.
but whatever the case, to those who have changed me, you are more than Presidents and Nobel Prize winners to me.
and as kandace says, sank you x)

2 people are on my slapping list when i get back to singapore. thanks for calling me emo. har

just got back from sabah, class vacation. and it was quite awesome! haha. hiking through hardcore rainforests, getting pounded by waterfalls, serious whitewater rafting with waves more than 1m high, soaking in the mud volcano, and sleeping on a hammock along the beach. just awesome. and of course all the nasi lamak and all the other sedap stuff.
so pictures some other time. most of the pictures of me featured me sleeping. haha. it was not action packed enough

perspectives III, If today was your last day

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last...

seminary today. the teacher Sister Farnsworth asked. what would you do if today were you last day. what do you want to be remembered for. what do you want written on your grave stone? have you told the important people in your life that they are important?
so isnt it a coincidence. just 2posts down *pointpoint* under perspectives II, i have given to shout out to some of the great people in my life. *go look*
but what do I want to be remembered for. and gosh. I have tried to make myself remembered. Coaching debate teams and breaking into finals for the first time~singing soprano, tenor than bass and pulling AChoir through and doing my bit for NJChoir~budding triathlete~more recently a 1st assistant to the branch president among many other things~but. thinking about it, i guess. that if I am just remembered as a friend, as a good friend, as a friend that was always there~that would be enough.
what do I want written on my tombstone? probably this. so listen up!
The Best is Yet to Be. (anyone surpwise) I am a man who strives for perfection in anything and everything. pitch, tone and rhythm in singing. rebuttals and arguements in debates and really. in everything
Proud to Be. Proud to Be a Singaporean. Proud to Be a Mormon. Proud to Be your friend. (:

"HD" - Celine Dion: The Prayer with Andrea Bocelli (Madison Square Garden Taking Chances Tour)

i love this song. will be singing this tomorrow. but of course june and i will sound totally better than this. june is celine and i am andrea bocelli. we all need a prayer

Andrea Bocelli "Can't Help Falling In Love"on stage

another wonderful song by andrea bocelli. i wanna sing something like this sometime. anyone interested?

perspectives II and so hows life? (editted)

THIS AWESOME PICTURE IS TAKEN BY NON OTHER THAN KANDACE
People change you. and you welcome that change. because deep down, that's what you want to do too. you want to be the change, bring about change, be remembered for that change. and so you admire them for what they did and you embrace it.
I think this sounds quite philosophical. I like it. and of course. I wrote it. haha. but anyways the later part of this post is dedicated to these people.


i think even fate has been making a fool out of me. haha. or at least my mp4 is. lemme give you an idea of what happened. i decided to put my player on shuffle out of random.
1st song- With or Without you, U2
2nd song- Here without you, 3 Doors Down
3rd song- Empty, The Click 5
4th song- All out of Love, Air Supply



so get the idea yeh. haha. and a few of us guys are going to sing Yesterday by the Beatles. and its so funny how just last week i was scorning and scoffing saying pft. stupid emo song. why are we singing this. haha. dang my teacher is a fortune teller because now this song is speaking what my heart is crying out.

things mean different things to you at different points in your life. its like a patriachal blessing. or the scriptures. it means different things to you when you are at different point of your life. or Sunday Best attire. What is a Sunday best? It depends on where you are. its called the Spirit of the Law. so see. just like those songs, things mean different things to you at different times of your life. in in reality, so are friends. they usually come and go. they usually are a different presence and influence in your life as it goes. usually this presence and influence decreases. usually, they eventually disappear.

but there are those special ones. those special ones who never die away. those special ones whose influence increases as time goes. these are those special ones. this is a shout out to you so that you know what you have done. life is short, unpredictable and i must say this while i have the chance. i have told some of you in person. but if i cant . this is it (: and of course the list is not exhaustive. not ranked in any order of AWESOMENESS. haha

to casey. whom i have known since i dont know when. crazy dj, music mixer magician, swimmer, tennis player, church senior, and of course a fantabulous fergerlicious friend. (:
credibilistic coryne (why did the cactus cross the road? haha) and EXTRemily (:we java jive away. haha. and other cool shenzhen people like rachel and jonny boy, saren, awesomegalicious audrey! haha.
krazy kandace aka the photographer, the cloner, ms jelly along with a whole lot of other names. got to know you when i was in sec2. life has never been the same since. all the backward letters and all the other retarded stuff. haha. good times
benji jembi lol. another FFF member. childhood friend, president of a president, ahaha. yeh i remember how you used to call yourself that. fun prank partner. haha.
sherman, david. basketballer and volleyballer. street magician. the times we shared will always be remembered.
all my ACbrothers, joey, roy, ken, ant... you rawk. we roll. and the blood of the chimera runs through our veins.

so many more but of course my family has to come in. always by my side. always will be I hope.
this shout out goes to you all. and if anything might ever happen. I hope, that you will always think of me at my best.

perspectives I

its funny how people can change your perspectives, change your likes and dislikes, maybe even change your personality!
just to list a few, my sister got me hooked on choir, casey got me hooked on awesome dance music and mashup's, shinny got me noticing tigger more, xP, chibi got me more chinese speaking, lol, rachel got me crazy about purple cows, haha, and kandace just got me krazy...xD
people change you. and you welcome that change. because deep down, thats what you want to do too. you want to be the change, bring about change, be remembered for that change. and so you admire them for what they did and you embrace it. but when that person leaves your life, that part of you starts to die out. or you make it go away. coz having that still in you only reminds you of that person. and it hurts. BIG TIME. and then you have a void in your heart, in your life. and maybe it might hurt more than memories. but you push on. you dont give a...you dont care. haha. you load yourself and pile on the work! wake up at 5am to run. go train and coach the touch rugby team. make everywhere else (including the brain surpwise surpwise) hurt so that it can divert your attention away. life is full of adaptations. its darwanian.
this week was kinda good. there was mutual yesterday and i decided to go pop down to matt sears's house to say hi. background. matt is a priest, inactive because his chinese girlfriend is not allowed to attend church. he is doing his eagle project. most of his friends are in college so well, since we all can do with an extra friend, i try to visit him as often as i can. and so i was walking down to his place, saw this deacon that did not want to go for mutual and is semi-inactive, pulled him along with me. then went to matt's house and really i just wanted to catch up with him but he said he would follow us down to mutual in the end. awesome yeh?

its all about perspective. life's good. and if ANYBODY dare say that this is an emo post, i will slaaaap you when i go to singapore in november. hahaha

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger. What doesnt kill you will only make you stronger.

bah i am still living so thats good i guess but dang. i am just dead. haha. well yesh. that was totally contradictory but oh well. dang. i need to sleep. i feel like crap. kandace is awesome, so is casey and ben, this is random

WJ Has Updated The Blog, Mozzies Are No Longer Breeding...

right finee....i havent been posting. been busy. but it is a down time between class. just listened to another mash-up that casey did. one word. PRO. haha. other words that come to mind? wizard, genius, fantabulous. haha.
so what have i been up to? for one there is the psychology project. why is it hard? the work isnt. if not for the fact that we have to create a beautiful poster and i stink at art. if not for the fact that i am the only guy in a group of 3. oh! did i mention that the 2 girls like hate each other? so i have to put up with both of them b...bickering to me about each other...gosh. gals. pft.
cross country meet this friday, yc with hong kong stake this saturday. we are going to play paintball and many other cooool stuff.
brb. have to log off for awhile

so! i am in changi airport, using wireless@sg, doing this blog post. touched down on saturday and straight after dropping my baggage off, i went down to church to meet up with casey, myra, kandace, marissa and chibi for dinner. so casey, marissa and chibi knew that i was back but myra and kandace didnt. haha. their reaction was SO funny. went to newton food centre where i met my "soul-mate" lol. haha. really it was just this auntie with a pink polo-tee that didnt look like mine AT ALL. haha.but it was quite funnae. haha. then although i was staying at a hotel somewhere in dhouby, i took the train all the way to woodlands then back! haha. but it was fun lurh. (i use my tie to cover my blush *blush!*) haha. okok fine. i should stop doing that. haha. but i got cloned by krazyy kandace! (i have to think of a better epithet for you. haha) but aint that awesome? hey you have to post the soft copy of it up some time horr (:

sunday was cool too. got pulled to choir~sadlyy~haha. but there was youth fireside at night. then went to bishop li's house for dinner and ZOMG. was the food and desserts BLOWYOURMINDFRIGGINLYAWESOME. haha. but i totally forgot to take pictures with all of em :( but it was fun. played pass it along pictionary (hah! an idea for the next mutual in shenzhen thanks) went totally bonkus in the train to his house with my sistas! haha. was totally crazy la. man theres so many things i want to write about!

stayed with my cousin for awhile and FLIP he is huge. not even joking. HUGE.

bah. i DO miss the singapore youth lots~casey is as awesome as ever, myra as short as ever, kandace has started speaking chinese and korean but as epic as ever, chibi still as kiddo-ey as ever. dangflipbang.

i might do a second post sometime.

freddy out

I feel so random in AP lang now that i must sayy~this is my 225th post and its on 9/11! gosh. random aint it? so! i will be back in singapore tomorrow? and its gonna be so cool. haha. but hey its not a holidayy i have work to do.

I'm gna be singing "The Prayer" dnu how many people heard that song~but its awesome. go search it. the version by josh groban is awesome. right. i "prolly" (as kandace always uses, lol) should be paying attention in class. haha. chowz! pip pip cheerio! (:

so its totally amazing. i've found a sailing club here, sailing olympic class hobie 16's now. its a catamaran. and so i'm now doing something like this

Yeh. trust me, hanging of the boat like that is reaal fun. hard but fun. professionals only Xp and its even nicer when you'r ein open sea and 3 dolphins are swimming right next to you like how they were next to my boat yesterday. amazing. the creation (: i'll prob take rachel out with me someday.

3rd post this sunday...thinking of those happy times we had makes me long for them. makes me wanna cry...

ah wtheck. another of this 2 posts in 1 day. what to do. i just read kandaces blog.

Quote:" have been had a spoken to someone a little more frequently and perhaps a little more genuinely.

I do regret my actions.. or should I say, NON-action (haha) and hopefully can improve and embrace uncertainty a bit better in the days to come. Perhaps speak with someone I don't usually speak with or just have a plesant and meaningful conversation with a friend."

gosh made me think it did. reallyy think. so made me think of all the friends i am so grateful to have. HONESTLY. list is not exclusive. benji and casey, leroy and kenneth, joey and anthony, myra and chibi, and yes andrea and kandace of course. lol. dang made me remember how i 1st got to know the 2 of them.

haha. so i 1st got to know andrea. i saw her after one night before a debate competition. recognized she was frm church said hi. at that time i thought she was called abish. lol. ya wtheck. that same night AFTER my debate, i saw kandace. and yes i knew that i saw her around in church b4, so i said hi. haha. she probably thought i was some crazy random guy. (hmm..sounds like me.) but so i got to know andrea 1st and she introduced me to kandace and thats how i got to know 2 wonderful friends. we became real close? or at least i felt close to them. smsed them everyday. called them too. told them things i told no one else and shared some secrets and problems with each other. except other than casey and ben mayb. but then...we started driftin away...far away. or at least again, haha, to me. maybe its coz, i changed. mayb its coz they changed. mayb its coz we both changed. haha. or that we talked to each other less and less. regret it? totally. so yes. maybe its time. time i start picking up those friendships that i miss. that i feel i've lost...a pity. big pity.

but i want to thank all you awesome friends i have. i dont talk much. i dont often say and tell people how much they mean to me. but ya'll do. and i loved and am loving every moment i spend with each one of you. may the fire of friendship always burn in our hearts. (:

so yesterday was a splendid day? went on my 1st date. and haha. my fingers are sore. went bowling. lol. so rmbr i was blogging about how i suck at bowling unless theres a hot girl around? lol. and even when there was one 2lanes down when i last went bowling, i cudnt score above 100...this time, i got 8strikes, one turkey, and 9spares in 5games. haha. so infer. she's KICKASS hot. haha. but shes really nice. mormon of course. hopefully things would work out. but theres army, mission and college. and americans marry young. pft. what to do~?

Quote from a note her mom wrote on FB:

"Rachel turned sixteen last week and will be going on her first date today...scary!!!!!! She is a really good kid and this boy in our branch here has been waiting for her to turn sixteen so they could start dating."

lol. never say i'm a good kid! pout. oh well. haha.

so i'm injured. a sickly bruised toe. got stomped on while at the beach retreat with my school. thought it was just pain and it would go so i rubbed it then went to unofficially train and do beach runs with the track team, played some rugby, went home and saw a purple, black and swollen 2nd toe. so now i have to cool of my training. bummer eh...

gosh, i hope things betweeb the 2 of us works out~

BECAUSE OF OVERWHELMING POPULAR DEMAND~! (yar rite...) I am updating my blog. so i have school till 5pm today. joy. thanks to MUN. haha. so I have 2 coaches now to help me with my training. and they are quite crazyyy. but thats a good thing rite? Xp training everyday during lunch on top of 3days of 1.5hrs of fitness class per week. awesome eh?

but so i am stoning away now in MUN meeting. no one really online to chat with so. haha. casey is pia-ing for his test, nj peeps have pw now or are still in sch so...so gosh seriousleeee.

so liz finally answered her sms XD aMAZinggg. haha. btw she doesnt like internet smses. lol thats why its amazingg. ip2's just finished OBS but they didnt manage to sail so aww...

talking about sailing, i've finally managed to find a sailing club here in shenzhen! whoots.

gosh so you probably realized (yeah realized with a "Z" and not "S". americano style haha) life has been rather boring for me. i still have to upload some pictures but i'm lazyy.

Kandace is an awesome photgrapher. more than awesome actually.

Liz is just crazily funny but i havent talked to her for a long time~:(

casey is just epic. go study dude...lol.

benji is just having fun with his war games...yar ritez.

I have helped 3 people with their EOMs which was great but I realized too that I have a whole stack of shiat waiting for me. fun eh~

i miss singapore, i miss my laksa, i miss my mee robus, and my botak jones *pout* and all my friends of course.

but yes we youth in the Shenzhen branch are awesome. coryne and emily sang the previous sunday. awesome. blew me to heaven and back. and so emily went for efy and sang there, some person went up to her and asked when she would cut her own album coz she wanted to buy it. then called her a disney princess. yes, she has the looks to go with the voice.

we awesome people. Xp

xian day...wtvr

so i realized the reason why i dont put any labels for my posts. if i do, everything will just be labeled under RANDOM. haha. 2nd day in xian. kinda~bought a converse shirt yesterday. today went to church. small branch in xian that is made up of the 5ppl from my family, the branch president, and this single lady in her late 40's who has 50+ kids. aha. (she runs an orphanage) so it was quite coool. met in the branch president's house. sang hymns, since the branch is so small everyone was required to bear a 15 min testimony. lol. jkjk but we all had to bear a testimony. going to visit some museum now and flip i hate museums. oh well.
found out something too. i only fear 2 things.
1) God
2) Heights
and because of my 2nd fear, dang i'll have trouble adjusting to life in heaven...(assumptions aplenty lol)

so Men's enrichment. 3P's. Pool (as in like billards), Ping Pong and PIZZAAAAA. haha. then we went to play bowling and yes i stinked. haha. fine i sinked the winning shots in pool when we were playing 2-2 but for bowling seesh. reminded me of the times that i went bowling with leroy and kenneth and how i only managed to sink stikes in a row when there was this hawt gal a few lanes down. then leroy and kenneth was like shout chio bu and throw mayb will work. haha. worked. no gutter. just strikes, spares and more than once. funnyyyyy. then we came back to one of the brother's house to play more pool. cut-throat pool.
so now the summer is still on. i'm in xian now and will be visiting a few other places. sch starting soon in 3 weeks? i'll still be attending the 2day seminary though even though i have completed all 4 years. since tahts what some ppl in singapore are doing rite? instead of doing institute this year? haha. but so i dont need to do the seminary hw that i would usually need too. luckyy.
i have seriously gotten dumber anyway...if thats possible. with the schooling system here honestly. compared to in singapore its a piece of cake but i've gotten so slack that i'm grumbling...grr.
going for thimun this year. but i hvnt registered for NS so i'm scared i kena caught at the airport. lol. my teacher said that he would ask teh dude to check my passport again if he lets me through for fun to make him arrest me. lol.

havent posted in a long while. life is quite...bah nvm. we try nt to think sad things eh? anyways, i bot harry potter 6 at some roadside store and was treated to emma watson speaking chinese. lol. who cares just as hawt. lol. same thing with megan fox. srsly...haha. but it was quite funnyyy. so i've got EQ's Men Enrichment tonite. total copy of what they do in RS except...no table clothes, flowers and the food must be able to be prepared in less than 2mins. ahaha. pft life is...kill me...fb is down, so is youtube twitter and blogger actually. the proxy is working this time though...luckyyy.

i'm feeling like craaap. and its not because of sch now since things are winding down. guess what we did in choir class? watched west side story. guessed what we did in asain lit? watched lord of the rings. guessed what we did in physics then? ordered kababs and pizza, then watched another movie. so nope its nt schh but i still feel like crap. useless. pft!

i'm a stressed man. SAT, timetable and subject choices for next year, group assignments overdue (or should i say individual assignments since my teamate is really goood! for nothing...) i'm am just going to explode. haha. then you people in singapore are probably thinking, crazy bugger whos learning logaritms for math and says he is stressed. well YARR. math and science is easy, but the humanities are crap hard. pft. going to exploode. 

yet i'm a relieved man. performcance is over. did that swing dance and it was okayy...first time performing a dance and it was okay. sang another solo and it was also okay. nth fantabulous. nth epic.

but, i'm also a happy man! (: because of what i've learnt this week. haha. 

i'm such a confused man. lol. who on earth feels 3 different conflicting emotions at once. XD

I Heart You Online

Quite a cool song really. my teacher played it then i was like, i heart you online?! hahaha.

whoosh. things have been moving quickly. lots of things to do. haha. well learnt a new scientific principle. you know the principle of conservation of energy? (energy cnt be destroyed but only transfered blah blah...) well, presenting to you...the principle of conservation of PROBLEMS.

rachel tay: Fred! do you know how to dance the swing?
Fred (aka ME!): yeahhh~...(tks bro davis! haha)
rechel tay: OMGOSH! thanks you just solved my problem!
Mr Hughes (my wayy cool science teacher who is JUST like jack black in the school of rock. bearded, rawks on the guitar, and he has a band that is invited to perform in HK frequentlyy): law of conservation of problems. rachel's problem is solved, Fred, yours just began.

so now here i am, dancing the swing at the concert with a live concert band behind me in front of i dont know who. quite freakishly freaky but mayb awesome too...video maybe?

so somehow i'm worrying again. worried over the little chibi mostlyy. little kid ahh....but well, i'm worried over everyone else too. people arent smiling enuff! too emo! busy! stressed! (Ms LIZ GAN thats youu femeoww. haha) well, smile people, dont make this old man worry. (: but if theres anything i can do tell me. otherwise i worry even more la. haha. HEAH HEAH HEAH xP

qn.: how do you tell a gender of a cat?

ans: ask it! (duhh) haha. if its a guy it'll purr meoww. if not it'll replyy femeowwww hhahah. (:

long post on youth conference. pictures at a later date. hah

back from youth conference! and it was reallyyy awesome. i mean i knew it would be awesome, but not THAT awesome. well so day one, had ice-breaker games. shared some ambaressing things about my self. played 2 truths and a lie. i got my black belt when i was eight. i wore a skirt and acted in a play as a girl once (charlie gorden! aha) i went surfing before. (: go figure. got a new name Maria von Trapp. for full story, ask. haha. but well learnt some interesting stuff bout people too! haha. hilarious stuff bout jonny and rachel (: aww. cute stuff actuallyy. haha.
we then had a fireside by a GA. Elder Perkins of the 70's. and he just came from general conference in utah. Pres. Eyring went up to him and asked him where is his next assignment. He told Pres Eyring that he was going to china for YC. Pres Eyring simply said. Will you tell them that we love them? and that we are always praying for them? and ask them to pray for us too. and you know, even when i am typing this, shivers are going through me, and such a great feeling of love. but so! highlights! there was a dance that night which was epic, and awesome (: enjoyed the dances. REALLY enjoyed it (:
over to hk the next day. got stopped by customs coz i dont look ANYTHING like the picture in my passport. haha. srsly. so went to the temple the next day and words cannot describe how great i felt. the feeling of knowing that you worked real hard in life to keep on the straight and narrow and are worthy to enter the house of the Lord, worthy to participate in Holy ordinances. it was just great. it is something i never want to lose.
had exchanges with the missionaries after the temple trip. went to teach this sri lankan family. simple family. whole house was literaly a 3m by 3m room. didnt speak much english. but the Spirit was just wonderful. again i'm just so grateful that i am able to feel the Spirit, and His love.
later on had workshops. Sister Alden, this wonderful old lady drilled something in my mind. "When you get married in the temple and have children..." haha. it was something her mom drilled into her too.and she shared it with us. well of course the story is a lot longer but this is summarized. haha. when i get married in the temple and have children... (: temple marriage is what i'm having nothing less.
you know i'm actually happy that i'm here in china. with the epic and awesome shenzhen youth (: i know that i am supposed to be here. was rather clear in my patriachal blessing that i should. and i have no regrets. none at all. in fact, i would now regret if i hadnt come here. got to know a few special people (yeahh you are special Xp) and it is just great. now that 2 of me friends in church are leaving, me sad :( bah i'm being spastic again. but yeahhh. i owe you ben. we youth will always have each other though. (: we are never alone.
countdown. it is now may.

nope no one tagged me to do this quizz :( but i'm bored so i stole it muahahahaaaa! from ally's blogg

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. Shuai Ge Xp (hahaha. jkjkjk)
2. Fred
3. Wen Jie...

THREE IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE: 
1. 26th Feb (what to doo...haha)
2. uhmzz. 25th dec! (family gathering! haha)
3. Some date in April (the date that the Church was organized! haha)

THREE THINGS YOU HAVE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. Listened to math lesson in class
2. Listening to Chem lesson in class
3. Trying to do me work that I'm supposed to do. haha

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY EVEN IF YOU'RE STUCK AT HOME:
1. TRY TO blogg 
2. Watch movies online. haha. (on the rocky series) 
3. MSN! and talk to fun peeeeps!

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. YOU! hahah
2. Eternal lifee XD
3. uhms. a white colored blazer (:

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. Singinggg~ la la la
2. running. haha. fine that isnt really my FAVOURITE but oh well. haha
3. chillaxingg. (:

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. US. the last time i went there was when i was...11 turning 12? couldnt go into salt lake temple yet :(
2. Japan. nice place, nice shopping
3. Paradise. haha

THREE PLACES YOU FIND MOST EXOTIC AND WANT TO GO TO:
1. Greece
2. Hawaii
3. Caribbean

THREE FAVOURITE DRINKS:
1. Water.
2. Hot/cold Chocolaate
3. Milkk X)

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1. Lappy
2. Scriptures (had seminary todayy)

3. spare shirt for runningg

THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS:
1. Pink (ties)
2. Blue (eyes)
3. Purple (cows) hahaha

TOP THREE HANGOUTS:
1. Home.
2. Church.
3. Treadmill? haha

TOP THREE YOU LOVE SO MUCH:
1. Churchh!
2. Friends X)
3. Familyyy

TOP THREE "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. Gospel aka atonement and all
2. My family, home and friends (exactly the same as ally)
3. My shoes and bike

TOP THREE THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY LATELY:
1. having fun with shenzhen youths of Zion (haha. yeah grand name XD)
2. Finishing 2 Rocky movies so far
3. seminaryyy!

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1.Bored
2. really BORed

3. EXTREMILY BORED!!!!

dang its overr! time to find another one to dooo

What my birthday says about me

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

so many things happened this week. haha. for one, managed to start on my training program. managed to run everyday in school during lunch, run to school from seminary, and even used the trainer to bike. well! one week down, many more weeks to go!

second, general conference was speendid! i lived through a total of 10hours and came out of it better spiritually and before. super worth it X)

latest news! the latest wonderful discovery of a PURPLE COW xD hahahaha. combining the most splendid color with the funkiest animal, we give you the purple cow. an animal invented (not by me but by someone else Xp) to help make your world go round. 

haha. nope i havent gone mad. not yet at least. 

have been really random lately coming up with pick up lines. then zihao asked me why am i still using english pickup lines in china! haha. should use chinese pickup lines. haha. so changed to a chinese pickup line "你吃辣椒吗？难怪这么辣" in literal chinese-english translation:"did you eat chili? no wonder so hot!" haha. then kandace, hahaha. i'm laughing thinking about it. was like ehh? and i had to translate it before she got it XD then she scolded me! haha. called this little boy boyy "spaSSStic" according to her. haha. but i insisted it was "spaRRRRRRRstic" haha. fine maybe i am. haha XD

purple cowwws, green skies, blue eyes, pink ties (:

epic picture. XD cute ehh? haha. 

shall post my recording of dejeuner du matin up soon. its another french poem that talks about how love might not exist at all. quite a seemingly random poem again but deep meaning. sorry to those i april fooled telling that i'm gonna stay in singapore for good in june. X) my friend did it to me when i came to sch then got a shock. haha. but hopefully i can go back for vacation. anyway, so i'm training with the soccer and swim team. dnu if i can make the team. (hope i dont anywayy. ruining my training program) so i'm starting to train for a half ironman XD but i looked at my training timetable and i'm going goshh. i'll probably slack off halfway. but anyway, i wanna take part in the disneyland osim triathlon and hainan island half ironman! wheee (: gonna sing a duet soon in april for some concert thingy. from phantom, "all i ask of you"

wah ystdy myra suddenly freaked me out when she that ben and i were asking her the same things. srsly....there has got to be some castatrophic clash of events in outer space or something for that to really occur. or if not it must be we great minds (: myra are u sure u are awake or conscious?! knock knock

must be earth day. that's what kandace said. along with some inspiration from above. (DONT PLAY WITH STRAYS PLEASE! no matter how cute they might be)

2 posts in one day!

last week in church the guy who gave the talk told this reaaal funny story that was originally told by some apostle i think. it goes something like this:

there were 3men in a cafe. the first man said i'm going to texas to get away from the mormons. the second said i'm going to hawaii to get away from the mormons. and the last man said i'm going to go to chicago to get away from the mormons. at this time, this guy in a tie walked up to them and said well then you three can just go to hell because there sure wont be any mormons there!

cool stuff ehh! haha. see i listen in church (:

Pour toi mon amour

Pour toi mon amour
Je suis allé au marché aux oiseaux
Et j'ai acheté des oiseaux
Pour toi
Mon amour
Je suis allé au marché aux fleurs
Et j'ai acheté des fleurs
Pour toi
Mon amour
Je suis allé au marché à la ferraille
Et j'ai acheté des chaînes
De lourdes chaînes
Pour toi
Mon amour
Et je suis allé au marché aux esclaves
Et je t'ai cherchée
Mais je ne t'ai pas trouvée
Mon amour

For You My Love

I went to the market, where they sell birds
and I bought some birds
for you
my love
I went to the market, where they sell flowers
and I bought some flowers
for you
my love
I went to the market, where they sell chains
and I bought some chains
heavy chains
for you
my love
And then I went to the slave market
and I looked for you
but I did not find you there 
my love

you know intitially i read this poem and was like whoa. can there be a more random person on earth? go to the market and talk about love? but reading it a few more times and after discussing it with the teacher, i managed to understand what it meant. sometimes, we go about finding for love, looking for love and doing everything to try and get that love. in the end, sometimes, we try to hard and it slips away, just like a bar of soap. and well other times, maybe the love just doesnt exist...or, unattainable. and that, is usually the case. or so i think. and so i refect. is this the case with me? am i chasing something i cant get? 

i have to analyse this peom for french class and the interesting thing about french love poetry, or at least poems written by this poet Jacques Prevert is that he talks about love and described it beautifully. but what hes really trying to say is that love doesnt exist...but i know it does. i'm sure it does. i hope...it does...

"Everytime you kick a Mormon (or Mormonism), you kick it upstairs, you never kick it downwards. The Lord Almighty so orders it." President Brigham Young

I love him. He's really such a funny prophet and this is one of the cool things that he said. There was another incident of this brother in America who used to serve a mission among the red indians. and so he adopted this little red indian girl after his mission and raised her as his own. when she grew up however and got of age to marry, many shady guys like cowboys and ruffians and wierdos came to his door to look for his daughter. and so this brother was really worried about his daughter's future with all these "bad guys" looking for her. he then went to find President Young and asked President Young what he could do to make these shady guys stop seeing his daughter and that her daughter would be able to marry into a good family and have a good future. guess what President Young said...MARRY HER. yes. he asked the brother to marry his own adopted daughter. President Young said you want those guys to stop seeing her, then marry her. but that was when plural marraiges were still allowed. funny huh President Young, but still, there is no doubt that he is a real prophet of God.

i'm supposed to do a post on religion. ltr ltr. (:

censored for public view but yeah. i havent frigging figured how to even solve the most basic rubiks cube. so had MUN today and decided to be the big evil guy to create trouble for everybody so talked alot. haha. but still almost fell asleep. then there was dinner and dance but i left halfway coz the 6 dj's. yes 6! were so lugi hopeless. like i was there for 30min and in that 3o min they changed the song halfway 10times, never once used the faders. and mind you and went to look at the equiptment b4 hand and they had 10faders on hand...song choice was retarded and so it wasnt worth my time to be there and so i scooted off. whee.have last session of MUN tmrw. zzz...anyway, i'm guessing "boo" is a little mean person who takes joy in seeing a pityful small boyboy crack his head just to guess the person's identity. MEANIE MEANIE MEANIE MEANIE

(mouse) hahaha! reveal yourself!

picture of the next period! haha

Picture of the period. aha. stupid ang mohs...

its now asian literature. haha. boring...so here i am again. haha. i love having a laptop. last time i didnt have a laptop so i write letters when bored Xp but now have laptop and no one to write letters to so blog lor. haha.
"Col. Mustard: How many husbands have you had?
Mrs. White: Mine or other women's?"

lol. ok i'm getting real random and lame...anyways, i am super scared. have absolutely no idea if i can meet the qualification time for the swim competition...howw howw? :(

ok. nxt period. later!

ok. it has been long since i last updated. but its because i'm BUSYYYY. haha. with the MUN coming up and stuff. but oh wells, due to overwhelming demand, haha, i shall take some time of to do a short post now during math. haha. and guess what i'm doing for math..."what is the sixth root of 729..." like kill me easy. haha. but no complaints there. managed to post uo some photos on facebook yesterday. some reaally old photos. haha. for the fun of it. Xp
zzz. today is a loong day. so math now, then chem...then theres pe and french and soccer training after school.
i'm asking benji to help me arrange a song or 2. and send me a few songs that he had already did up. haha. coz me choir teacher asking me to do a performance so. haha. benji has the priviledge of getting his songs sung. haha. reason why i'm doing this, 1) coz its rather fun Xp. 2) coz if i do this well, i can get a good grade in choir. haha.
bah. and so the people here are really different than in singapore. i'm totally sick and tired of putting on a fake accent. totally want to speak some singlish again. like SERIOUSLY. I MISS IT! haha. no more wah lao, wah biang, wah seh. hahahaha. crazy. oh well, c'est la vie...haha. enuff for now. better go do some work 1st, post again ltr. haha

knee how (: so here i am in this huge country. super dirty really. like on my first day, we went out for dinner, then some water was like squirting out from the floor. brownish water. guess what is was. haha. SEWAGE! yeah. the pipe bursts around every 2 days. joy...then we wanted to take a cab to church and there was one outside the apartment waiting like at the taxi stand. but it was covered by 40 houseflies. like seriouslyy. not joking. not exaggerating and even when the car was moving, the housefly just stays on the car. sick really. and it stinks and so many other things but. haha. oh well! yes. a few interesting courses. haha. french! sexy romantic language (: haha. then theres international politics. another cool one. seeing as i might wanna be a diplomat this is a good subject. sad theres no cooking class. (not home econs! like real cooking) or baking for that matter. haha. 

bah. and i thought that i can get a break in here. yar right. tmrw have byc, ym presidency meeting. then next week have apc and have to give a sacrament talk. dang.

over the past 2 weeks, i have eaten pizza twice, kfc thrice, 3 cakes, steamboat and i dont know what else. dang am i gonna get fat before i leave. wahaha. and its a conspiracy seriously. to make me cry...

NJCHOIR!

craazyyy stuff. i seriously have enough of needles for a while. in the past month i have had 12 injections. bah. inject until no more place to inject liao. then today, went for acupuncture for free. (pays to have a uncle working as a physician) but anyway, yar. two needles into me all thanks to the fact that i injured my ankle and made it swollen. to what happened was this. he take the needle then just knock it into me. that was fine la. no feeling at all. but then he started to twist and turn the needle and push it deep and and that was craaaaap. whole leg went numb. but oh well, at least my leg feels alot better now. so interesting tcm. i wonder how it works. all the qi path and stuff. real cool. anyway he wanted to do a treatment for my pimples too... -.- but he said that one would REALLY hurt. so he said next time then he do. coz that one got pain and got blood come out so next time. haha. 

hmms. so possible career paths i'm thinking of are, foreign diplomat. i think its super cool what they do and well, they use their mouth alot, get to stay in a foreign country, its like a paid for holiday man! haha. but seriously. nice job. then i dont mind being a chef too. i absolutely loooooove cooking and loooooove baking. (: and i'm actually rather ok at it. haha. mayb mayb i dnu. haha. 

buahas. long overdue post on the new year eve dance. the ambiance was cool. the music was fabulous and the company was GREAT. and the dj's. hahaha. dang werent they splendid. the dance would not have been half as nice if the dj's werent casey and ben who were awesome. haha. the songs were really good. haha. everybody was like chao high. hahaha. then slow dance, had 2 dances. baaahhhhs.
dang am i gonna miss you guys......so many things i still wanna do! have another performance with the FFF (next talentnite mayb? fine not mayb MUST. HAHA) perform with nj choirrrr!!! bahhss. and so many more. so many things so little timeee...
anyway, went for lunch with ben, myra and sam last week at swensens where we saw sherman. then the 2 of them, myra and sam, threw all my stuff in my wallet, well most of the stuff, becoz it was "junk"...well fine a 2005 calander, and 2004 receipt. aha. but bahhs. they threw THAT receipt away. oh well. at least theres nth holding me back to that past now.
hmm so i was thinking. u know i would normally moan at how much i'm loosing because i'm going to china. but maybe i should be a little positive. and look at what i have gained instead.
so far i have GAINED the chance to be born the the church, where i've had the gospel in my life. i have GAINED the company of maaaanyyyy greaaat friends in church and yeup elsewhere tooo friends who have been so supportive, so fun and so everything. wahaha. (: then going to a sch with 2 guys and 7 girls definitely a gain. lolz. jkjki prefer local girls thanks (: and my grandma will slaughter me if i hook up with and ang moh. hahahha.
what have i lost? i have lost the company of a few negative friends that i should have removed myself from a long time ago anyway. i have lost a whole load of heataches and bad memories. not a bad trade eh?